I Got To Breathe

Chapter 6 (It Hurts)

Nasa office kami ngayon. May nakalaan na space para sa mga interns para makapag-aral at makapagpahinga na din. Parang lounge ng mga interns pero may sarili kang desk at library sa loob.

Kanina pa ako kinukulit ni Nathan.

"Sige na, kumakanta ka daw sabi ni Dr. Briones. 'Di ba magkaklase kayo? Sinabi lang naman niya sa akin na singer ka daw." Kanina pa niya ako pinipilit. Ayoko namang pansinin ang sinasabi niya kasi nga busy ako sa post-op notes na binigay sa akin ni Dr. Lorenzo, plus hindi pa ako magaling gumawa ng notes. Nakakabobo na nga to be honest.

"Nathan, stop. Madami pa akong ginagawa." Pagtataboy ko sa kanya. He can be a little stubborn to be honest.

"Eh kahit ano lang pwede mo kantahin, iparinig mo na kasi. Malay mo pang 'The Voice' ka pala."

"Ugh, Nathan baka kainin ako nang buhay ni Dr. Lorenzo. He kinda hates me, just so you'll know. Iisipin niya isip bata ako at pakanta-kanta lang dito. Why don't you stop pestering me?" Hindi pa din siya natinag at kinuha ang ballpen sa kamay ko.

"Nathan, give it back." Tumayo siya at lumayo. 

"Not giving this back, sige na kasi." I rolled my eyes at him.

"Sige na kasi, Evangeline! Wooh!" Nagpalakpakan ang mga ka-group ko. Nakidamay na din ang ibang interns na nasa office.

Napakamot na lang ako sa ulo. Nakaka-stress talaga 'tong mga kasama ko. Parang mga bata. Mukha na nga akong haggard dito pero hindi pa din nila ako tinitigilan. Tumayo ako para makabuwelo.

"Okay, I surrender." I raised my hands. Nagpalakpakan pa silang lahat. Tinanggal ko na una ang white gown na suot ko at isinapay sa swivel chair kung saan ako umuupo.

"May request ba kayo?"

"Ikaw na lang mamili, Evangeline. Kung anong feel mo, promise okay lang kahit ano. Proud na proud kasi mga kaklase mo sa 'yo eh." Huminga ako nang malalim. Actually, kanta ko talaga 'to para sa ex kong niloko ako.

But still persistent to pursue me. He's still hoping that I would forgive him. Isang taon na ang nakalipas pero ganun pa din pala.

"Okay, pero don't make fun of me. Hindi na ako masyado kumakanta."

Guess my suspicions all on you were right
You brought the hurricane into my life
Here's the truth, I want to know
How it feels on your own
Just blurry images of us in mind

I used to cry, I used to worry
But now you say you're so damn sorry
How could you be kind but still so cruel?

Don't say that this is what it feels like
You've got my heart under a headlight
And though my mind is always changing
Won't you give my heart a break?
Try to fix the broken pieces once again
Don't say that this is what it feels like
To give your heart away

Nothing could feel the same between us two
You seemed to want me now I don't want you
I used to fall in the trash
Hard to find my way back
And now you hate it that I wear the shoes

I used to cry, I used to worry
But now you say you're so damn sorry
How could you pretend to be so real?Don't say that this is what it feels like

You've got my heart under a headlight
And though my mind is always changing
Won't you give my heart a break?
Try to fix the broken pieces once again
Don't say that this is what it feels like
To give your heart away