Forgive Me [Discontinued]

Chapter 4 - Everyone's Broken Heart

I quickly turned the other direction and walked away as fast as my leg could go, trying to act as though I haven't seen him but I doubted so. I could hear him calling out my name in a distance. It sends a weird feeling to my heart like he did every time he says my name but this time, it was sending my heart racing in nervousness.

I can't face him. Because I know for certain that I will break down in a matter of seconds and right now, I am on the edge of doing so. The pain doesn't just heal instantly. I need time. Away from him. But sadly, he wasn't giving me that because not moments later, I felt a hand gripping tightly on my wrist that felt all too familiar.

"Stella, just listen to me. Please..." He begged, sounding desperate.

I was just moments away from breaking down because whenever I see him, my mind is just clouded with him and that woman. It was like a video that kept going on replay and his voice and begging was not making it any better for me. But I was determined to not shed a tear for him although it was too difficult of a task.

"Let go of me." I grunted out, trying to sound determined and strong but it came out more like a weak plead. I did not turning around to face him but tried to pull my wrist. I was shaking my hand more vigorously as he tightens his grip on me. "I said, LET GO OF ME!" I screamed, almost begging him, noticing at the side of my eyes that strangers are glancing our way but I didn't care. All I want now is to get away from him.

I was able to free my hands from him and was going to continue walking or more like sprinting away from him but I was not able to get far as I moved a couple of steps in front, his hand gripped me again but this time, he pulled my arm, making me involuntary turn to him. I was about to lash out again but was not able to as he quickly pulled me against his chest and wrap his hands around my body, causing me to be trap underneath his arms.

"Let. Go. Of. Me." I said in between hits as I punch his chest, demanding that he free me right now, feeling the tears prickling my eyes and a lump in my throat.

His scent. I miss him. I hate to admit it but after what he did to my heart, I still miss him. The scent of his cologne and musk, mixing in with the scent of his shirt just reminds me of the times where I was feeling down, he would always be there to comfort me. Bringing me into his embrace and rubbing my scalp soothingly. Or every night, we would cuddle up together. I miss all of that. I miss the comfort. I miss the unconditional love he gave me.

"I'm sorry..." He said, very airily and defeated as he places his face on the crook of my neck. His lips were lightly brushing my shoulder as he spoke. His voice was so faint that I would have almost missed it if it weren't for his face being placed right beside mine. I stopped hitting him monetarily as he continued.

"God, I'm so sorry, Stella. Please, I beg you, don't leave me. I was an asshole. I made a mistake, and because of that, I broke your heart." His arms around me tighten.

"I can't live a moment without you. I can't bare another thought of waking up without you in my arms. Please...just come back... I love you, Stel. So...damn freaking much."

I just stood there, in his embrace, dumbfounded. I didn't hug him back. No. I just broke. Hearing those three words from him again that hasn't been heard for months. It was just three simple words but it meant so much to me. I love him. I bared my soul to me. But he broke me. He shattered my heart to a million pieces that I thought could be no way possible and...it hurts.

I could feel Nathan's arm tightening slightly around me as I cried. My hands were splayed on his chest and my head was laying on his chest. I could hear the faint heartbeat of Nathan's.

"Forgive me, please." Nathan begged, not leaving his face off my neck.

I slowly shifted my head and body away from him, creating some space between us again, as I wiped off the tears that have fallen on my face with the back of my hands. Nathan's arms were still around me but this time, I was able to take a good look at his face. His had dark circle under his eyes and his eyes were puffy red as though as he had just cried. I could see his stubble, noticing how he did not even bother to shave them off like he usually would. He was a mess. Did he really regret all those things that he has done? Did he really suffer when I was gone? I was so confused right now, not knowing whether to believe him or not. A part of him that was still head over toes over him was telling me that he was indeed telling the truth. That his life would be incomplete without me but the small part of me was having doubts. Thinking that all this was just a plot to win me back. That he needed me but does not truly wants me.

But the better half of me won as at the moment, I...

"I-I forgive you."

I was so blinded by love that at that moment, so vulnerable, so desperate for him that I...forgave him. I was that easy. That pathetic.

Nathan's body visibly relaxes as he embraces me with another hug, bringing my body close to him again and this time, I returned it. I slowly and hesitantly wrapped my arms around his torso, placing my chin on his shoulder. I closed my eyes as processed this moment. Nathan was back.

I slowly opened my eyes again to see a figure standing in the middle of the street, far away from us. The figure was looking at our direction. I squinted my eyes to remove away the tears that were blocking my vision and to get a clearer view of the person to find-

Luke. Just standing there with...hurt? on his face. I could see how his eyes would close momentarily before opening them up again. Before I could even break off Nathan's embrace, Luke turned around and walked away.

[To be continued...]

A/N:

So how did you feel having Stella and Nathan back together so quickly?