The First Time (Phan)

Chapter 1 - Released from Hell

Little Shit.

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The morning was torture, I had only two friends and none of them were in my lessons that morning, true, the lessons weren't techniqually lessons as all we did was watch films and talk due to exams ending, but they were still torture as I had no one to talk to and the films playing were always chick flicks. So I just sat at the back of the classrooms, earphones in my ears, blasting out music and trying to zone out of the world for a few hours.

It wasn't until lunch that my day brightened a bit. I saw Chris and Emma sat in our usual place at the back of the field under the only tree. Emma was sat there interrogating Chris about something and Chris clearly wasn't happy about it. In fact he was so unhappy he got up and stormed off away from her. But first he stopped and talked to me, "Oh hey Dan, umm... listen, Emma's probably going to talk about me when I'm gone, please don't listen to her. I um... I need to go, see ya."

Well that was a bit odd; usually Chris is super hyper and very inappropriate. As he sulked off again I strolled over to Emma and sat on the grass next to her, pulling out the sandwich I had bought out of Tesco on my way to school. She looked very excited and as though she was about to burst. "Well you gonna tell me about Chris or are you gonna keep it in and look constipated for the entirety of lunch?" I questioned while taking a bite out of my sandwich.

"I think Chris is seeing someone!" she blurted out in one breathe.

"Oh, wow, well good for him." Was that really the big news Chis didn't want me to listen to? Wait, no, Emma still looked excited. "Is there anything else about this mystery girl then?"

"Well, um... I don't think it's... a... umm... a girl..." she whispered so no one around could hear her.

"Oh! Well umm... good for him..." that was surprising; I wasn't expecting that, I would never expect him to be like me, well, I think like me. "I mean, umm... yeah... are you sure?" I probably sounded a bit homophobic but I didn't mean to be, it's just that Chris did say not to listen to what Emma said about him.

"Well um, that's the thing, he didn't actually say he was seeing anyone, it's just, he was saying how he, um...met someone and ahh....um... oh just get him to explain." Emma said under her breathe.

Oh, ok it was just Emma turning nothing into something again. That was usual of her, she once thought I didn't want to be friend with her because I didn't sit with her at lunch once, instead I just sat in the library and did some last minute cramming for the exam I had that afternoon, but Emma being Emma, she just assumed I suddenly hated her.

"Oh, ok, I'll talk to him later. So, got any new YouTubers for me to watch?" This was why I liked Emma, we had a shared passion for music and YouTube.

YouTube had only been going for two and a bit years and was still pretty new, but I had fallen in love with it. Being able to film a part of your life and put it online to share with the world, whether it's a funny thing your pet did once or past short films someone had created for their sixth form film studies project. I just loved it!
I discovered vloggers, people who sit in front of a camera and tell people about their lives, adding comedy and the power of editing to it. I also enjoyed comedy sketches as they always had me in stitches; I especially enjoyed OMFGItsJackandDean as they were just simply hilarious.

When I first saw YouTube part of me wanted to do vlogs and sketches so I made an account using my old school user name for literally everything, danisnotonfire, and tried to film an introduction to my channel. It wasn't until I had my laptops webcam set up in front of me that I realised I was just a boring fifteen year old boy with nothing interesting to talk about. I kept saying that I would one day do it, when my life has got a bit more interesting, but that has yet to happen.