she's torn

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She's lost

afraid

alone

always hiding behind her shadow

You can see it in her eyes that her soul has gone astray

She has a hole in her...a big black one...a hole that has to be filled but not with sorrow that needs to be killed

You can't hear her voice, it's barely above a whisper

Her sad eyes just give a clear picture of her broken heart

Of her fragile self

Of her weak spirit

She's like made of glass..made of paper

She feels like a prey trapped inside scared of going out

Scared of letting go

Of becoming free

She looks distant..not that she wants that but it's how things are

It's not that she chose this because it's just who she is

It's what makes her her!

No one understands her and that's normal as she doesn't understand herself either!

It's a bit weird but that's reality

Her heart aches from this

And the tears always accompany her cheeks that are most likely tinted from the way too many times she's shy and timid

She is her own friend

Her own shelter and secret holder

she finds it so difficult to just say what she's feeling on the inside to anyone out there because it's hard and trust me what she's sensing deep down there is a lot!

Indeed it's a lot

A lot to keep

A lot to hold onto

And just enough to create chaos

Her chest is like a battlefield

Emotions just struggle to keep themselves under control constantly making her guts hurt and mind blow!

She's a lonely girl with a lonely heart

Homeless and always searching for a refuge

For a way to escape

Things are blury in her eyes

She can't see properly

Maybe because she's afraid...afraid to see..afraid to know

And maybe she does see but everyone around is just blind and can't see the whole picture...just can't see that she needs help

She's in need of someone to understand what she's going through without throwing prejudices and false assumptions

Because she needs someone to be there for her

To help her

Assure her that things would turn alright in the end

It's difficult to continue a long path all by herself

She's tired

Every piece of her once-was-called-vibrant heart is shattered everywhere