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Janeth POV I walked back inside and I plopped on the couch. Next thing you know it Im get it tweets, snaps, DM's, pictures, Memes about me getting pregnant, raped, bullied so much more. I'm going to be honest with you it hurts it hurts a lot because I thought I could trust on Brianna. I also thought Grayson would never leave me. He told me he would never leave me and I guess I was wrong. I was wrong about both of them. People blame me because I was raped. Because my family sells drugs. Because of my dead twin sister. I mean I can't blame them about the pregnant part. But... I thought I would be safe in the school but I guess not.
I'm so done with people. I mean people judge you for everything. For the way you look, The way you dress, The way you act, even the way your family is, And the things you like. People are ridiculous they act like five-year-olds even the worst. But as long as you don't act like that you will always be with judged by others and if you've gone through this then you know what it feels like. Here's a little bit about me.
I have trusted issues but people judge me because of that they think that I don't like them or that I don't want to get close to go but it's not that. When you've gone through so much it's hard for you to trust othersbbecause you keep everything inside closed in your heart. And all the secrets you keep all your feelings you keep drowns you. They start pulling you down you just start drown. There's no way out because the only way out is for you to share your secrets and feelings and when you have trust issues you just can't.
I am also depressed and people judge me because of that. Now everybody has different types of depression. Mine simply is I stay home and just chill I mean it's not that I don't want to go out with my friends they normally invite me to go to stores and everything but I just can't. I don't know why I feel so lonely and I have so many friends that I could go out with but I can't somethings holding me back. Another thing is that when you're depressed tend to make you open up to just one person and you tell them everything but you don't notice that that's the only person that can hurt you and break you and much more and those are the people that always end up breaking you.
So now go ahead make fun of me I'm used to it everybody does even my family. The only person I really trust in was Brianna and she broke me. The only person I've loved in for so long was Grayson and he do not just leave me but he also Hurt me really bed in the way that I haven't gotten hurt for so long. But he did it and hopefully he feels happy and proud of himself because he broke someone who really loved him and would do anything to keep him safe and alive.
Ha but I guess that's what I get for opening up to people I thought I could trust.
Anyways enough of my little trust issues and mental health problems back to the story.
I turn off my phone completely and turn on the TV. I go to the News and I see everything that's going on in this world. From hurricanes to government issues to fights in the streets. Did I see that what I'm going through something so small. And that I'm making all of this drama make it such a big deal of it because all the Dolan fandom is hating on me. Students from my high school are bullying me because I've gotten raped because my dead sister because of my family. And I'm stupid enough to let it take me down. I stand up off the couch and I walk to my room. I walk to my closet and I pick out an outfit.
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