You Don't Love Me [Phan]

Prologue

"I Fell In Love With You Because You Loved Me When I Couldn't Love Myself"

   So this is what being in love feels like.

I've lived with him for 6 years. I know so many little things about him that no one else know. To be quite honest, I was insecure. Insecure before I started my YouTube channel. Insecure before I met my best friend. I know... surprise. Who hasn't been insecure about themselves at least once in their life?

But I guess that was just me going through my, "What Do I Want To Do With My Life," phase. Or how most people would refer to as, an "existential crisis." Oh how much of an inspiration I am.

No. I'm not. I don't mind people considering me as an inspiration. But I can't help but get flustered and annoyed when the one person who helped me become the best person I could possibly be, is completely looked over upon and not appreciated enough. Though, I am glad there are people who I cannot forget, that understand he is the reason why I am able to entertain you people with, "daily, consistent content."

...yeah I'll work on that.

When I was at the lowest point of my life, I was broken. I physically and mentally broke down. I was not happy with who I was. I couldn't find anything in life to make me feel cared for. To make me feel like everything was going to be alright...To make me feel loved.

"Dan! Are you ready? The taxi is waiting outside!" Phil shouted anxiously, breaking me from my train of thoughts.

I stand up from my bed and stood in front of my mirror to give myself a final check.

"Yep, yep, yep. I'm coming, just give me a sec!" I hollered back in response.

After trying to recover from my emotional breakdown, Phil was there to help pick up the pieces I left behind. Slowly, I started getting better. Enjoying the little things in life. Understanding what I couldn't before I met Phil... Not taking every moment spent with him for granted because, well... I love him. Our friendship means so much more than just "being" each other's best friends. Even if we're not a couple, our friendship holds a deeper meaning and consist of a stronger bond. And I wouldn't risk anything to change that.

"And for the love of God, please don't spray deodorant into your eyeballs again!"

Not wanting to waste anymore time did I already have, I just rolled my eyes in response.

Well, it's as good as it's going to get, I said mentally in my head, fidgeting my curl locks of a hobbit hair into place.

Taking one last look at my appearance in the mirror, I quickly grabbed my stuff in a haste, and practically booked it out of the house with a surprised Phil behind my trail, leaving him last to lock the door behind me.

I know...what a great friend I am.

VidCon U.S. here we come.

*Author Note*
Just wanted to slip in the fact that I am trying not to have this phanfic be held in a specific timeline. I like to imagine these events could've happened in any point of their life after meeting each other.

Thank you and until next time!