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That Damn Feeling

Do you ever get that "Oh my god is this really happening?" Feeling? 

That moment when your heart skips a beat.

That moment when you feel like your whole world is about to change. 

That beautiful, exciting, out of nowhere feeling. 

That god damn moment. 

That feeling, the moments where that feeling happens, are unforgettable to me. 

I remember certain moments more vividly than I probably should. And believe me, it sucks. If you haven't had this moment, then consider yourself lucky because it can only get more complicated from there. 

I remember that night not so long ago.

Bad music playing throughout the school. Kids running around playing soccer in the cafeteria and badly dancing in the gym. The best kind of memories are born on these nights. 

I remember our eyes locking from across a nearly empty cafeteria. 

I remember blood rushing to my cheeks and frantically trying to swipe my messy curls from in front of my face. 

I remember his mesmerizing green eyes locking with my blue. 

I remember being absolutely mesmerized by his light up sneakers (yes, you heard me, LIGHT UP!) 

That was the moment it all began. And sometimes I wish I could go back and slap myself. 

Now let me clarify: this is NOT love. 

That night he taught me to ballroom dance. He let me fall asleep on his shoulder. He made me smile for the first time in a long time. 

That night was something of a perfect dream, but it was full of this beautiful wrong feeling. 

He had her.

I had another.

But that night, for just a moment, we had each other.