Maybe We'll Make It After All {Sequel to What If? ~ Louis Tomlinson Fan Fic}

Chapter 3 - Pretend It's Ok

Her eyes lit up in surprise then immediately went back to typing,

"That sounds good."

I know she said that it's all good but I know that she's really mad at me inside.

"You sure that every things okay?"

She got up and slammed her desk,

"Can everyone stop asking me that! I'm just fine, alright?"

She screeched as she walked out of her office mad as hell,

"Roxy!"

I screamed after her as she ran into the girls bathroom.... Now tell me that she isn't going to go back to her same old routine!!!

"Hey Sage-"

Kendall said as I quickly interrupted him,

"Roxy is mad at me and I think she's going to do something bad to herself. Can you make sure that she doesn't?"

Kendall nodded as he walked into the girls bathroom,

-Roxy's POV-

Why does everyone have to keep checking up on me to see if I'm alright? Fuck I'm 18 years old. I think if I've made it this long, I can make it for many more. But right now I'm debating if I should pour 2 years and 6 months down the drain. I stared at my white arm and examined how pale it looked. You could really see the veins pop out more. It was scaring me, I never liked looking at veins in general.

I took out my razor from my bag and kept the debate going on in my head.

Do it Roxy, let yourself go.

I think I will this time, I've been through so much pain that I need to numb it somehow.

I can't tell anyone that I feel this way because I don't want to be sent into a madhouse or a psychiatric centre.

Before I could scar my wrist, I heard that voice that was my weakness since the first day I met them.

"Roxy. Please come out, I want to talk to you."

Kendall.... What the hell is he doing in the girls bathroom?

"Come on Rox, open up."

I sighed as I unlocked the door as I saw so much hurt in Kendall's eyes as he looked at me. I hid the razor in my back pocket so he didn't see it.

"Hey. Why are you in the girls bathroom?"

I asked him curiously as I shake from the horrendous thoughts I just had.

"Sage told me you were upset and I didn't want you to hurt yourself again."

I don't understand why but, I know Kendall was really trying to show me how much he cares about me right now. But I am extremely angry that he would think this way about me. Of course I was thinking of it, but like I said earlier. I don't want anyone to know I think like this.

"I just needed to take a breather from everyone asking me if I am ok. I wasn't going to hurt myself Kendork."

I said as I messed his hair,

"Hey, it took me an hour to get my hair swooped up like this."

I laughed as I tried patting it down.

"You look better with it when you wore it down."

He smirked as he squeezed me,

"Seriously Rox. If you're feeling upset or anything. Come and talk to me. You can come and hit me, yell at me, everything and anything. I really just don't want to see your wrists in cuts again or hear that your addicted to alcohol or anything."

I faked a smile as I kissed his cheek.

"Thanks Kendork, you're a great friend."

He smiled as he lead me out of the bathroom.

-Louis POV-

I was out of town with Carter doing a 'sexy' photo shoot with her to make people think that we're real.

"Now get on top of her and kiss her passionately."

I didn't like the idea but I pretended like it so I mounted her and stared into her brown eyes. They were full of addiction and sin. They were not as beautiful and loving as Roxy's-

"Louis, stop staring at me and kiss me already."

I snapped back into reality as I smacked my lips on her and bit her lip making it look more 'sexual' as they wanted.

"Louis, can you come here for a minute."

Simon asked as I got off of Carter to see him.

"What is up with you? I thought that you had real feelings for Carter and now you've been acting up for the past five days. I've been watching you and you've been acting weird ever since Roxanne was hired."

My eyes lit up to know that Simon was on to me. I had to make sure he didn't think that I am hung on Roxy for the sake of my job.

"What are you talking about Simon? I just met Roxanne the other day."

Simon took out his phone as he showed me a video of me and Roxy when I fell out of the closet and on top of her. I really wish I could've kissed her right there and then.

"Explain this to me Louis."

In that moment in my head I thought of many things, but looking at it right now it looks completely weird that we're just looking at each other for that long.

"I don't know. I thought that miss Roxanne had nice eyes."

I smirked as Simon looked like he was going to rip out his eyes,

"I know you're not telling me the truth about you and Roxanne. I just need to warn you that if anybody in the industry notices anything happening between you two. I'm going to have to fire one direction and make you guys find another recording label."

I laughed at his stupidity,

"We are fucking one direction, we don't need you. We're already as famous without you then we are with you."

I shot back at him,

"I bet so but for now, you know our deal."

He said as he ushered me back to Carter.

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