My Regrets

One: Memmories

It was quiet.

Really really quiet.

I was confused. I couldn't see. I couldn't feel. What was happening? I tried screaming out but I couldn't even open my mouth. Was I even breathing? I don't even remember what happened, Were I was, or even my name. All I know is that I felt like I was trapped in myself.

That's when it hit me. All these thoughts came flooding back into my mind at lighting speed, from my first memory, to more recent times.
It was all happening so fast, but I could still keep up with what was playing in my head.

My name was Ann Sonny. I'm Fifteen years old. I have a pet turtle name Fiji. I'm a only Child. My Parents are Divorced. We live in Pollenfield, Texas. It's a small town and I was born here. My best friends name was Amanda. I hated a girl named Cathy and her friends.

Why exactly was this happening? Why was I reminded about all these random facts?

But then It continued.

Cathy started to spread rumors. People thought I was a whore. I got beat up. Several boys tried to rape me. I got depressed and wanted relief. I started to harm myself in anyway I could find. Cutting, Biting, Burning... Nothing worked. School got worse and worse. One day when I came home from school, I threw my books on my bed, grabbed the rope out of my closet, stood on a chair, tied it around my clothes rack in my closet, and then my neck, I kicked the chair, and then everything went black.

I was Done.

That was my life. It ended so fast, and I know a little part of me knew that the flashback was supposed to be longer, but fifteen years goes by fast if it's all a flashback I guess.

I was left in complete darkness, and I could feel a cool breeze that just got colder and colder by the second. It felt as if I froze.

Then, a small light shined in the distance, and grew larger, until it covered my entire field of view.