Beautiful Nightmare

Prologue

Daphne's pov

- You're a worthless whore! - Levi shouted as soon as he saw me. - On your knees, now! - He furiously ordered.

Here he goes again with the slut shaming, what's new? I wonder if all the "scorpio" guys are sexist as well (referring to the zodiac sign).

I tried to refuse his order.

- Don't make me force you to obey me, my way! - He warned.

I sighed and finally did what he said.

- Look at me when I'm talking to you! - He yelled once more, grabbing harshly both of my cheeks, with his left hand, to force my head onto his direction, while I was on my knees.

I still didn't look back at him thus I didn't want the fear growing in my eyes to be seen.

Therefore he suddenly slapped my left cheek so hard but I remained silent and steel. I'm not even crying, I don't even feel the pain anymore.

I'm so used to him abusing me that at this point I could care less.

Since my reputation depends on him, I can't do much but stay in this unpleasant set up we have.

- Talagang hindi ka kikibo? - He asked while pulling my hair backwards.

- I'm sorry... What did I do this time? - I emotionlessly tried to wonder.

- I want you to stay away from Eren! You're staining my image! Can't you just stop whoring around? Are you that desperate? - He scolded me.

- I'm really s-sorry... - I apologized again even if I don't have anything to apologize for.

- Do you want me to file a divorce sooner? I don't really mind losing you on my sight, but you know exactly what the consequences are, remember? - He threatened.

- Sorry Lev, sorry talaga... - Muli kong paghingi ng tawad.

- Then stop whoring around! You bitch! - He shouted.

Tinanguan ko na lamang ito.

- Now get out. - Malamig na utos nito kasabay ng pagtulak sakin ng marahas sa sahig.

Mabilis akong tumayo at dali-daling umalis ng living room ng hindi na ito nililingon pa.

I took a shower so that I could cry it all out there. My tears fell down along with the shower.

At least, nobody could see how vulnerable I am in here. I often just want to stop existing.

Everybody thinks everything in our life is perfect but nothing is even that close to perfection.

I may have a career on the right track but the rest is troublesome thus my spiteful husband seems to have this hobby of turning my life into a living abyss.

Sa kakaemote ko, di ko na namalayang may nakapasok na pala ng cr.

Mabilis kong kinalma ang sarili ko at itinigil ang pag-iyak.

A sudden pair of hands grabbed my waist.

- Daphne... - He murmured. - I should be the only one using this body... - He huskily whispered and started kissing my left shoulder as he was cupping my right breast.

The audacity of this man, while he just go fuck whoever he wants.

Amoy na amoy ko ang alak mula dito.

I stopped from soaping my body.

He slightly pushed my back so I could go down on my knees, that's my cue.

I faced him and without any hesitation, he inserted his manhood to my entry. After orally satisfying him, he made me turn around and pushed my head down as well.

Without further warning, he inserted it onto my lower entrance. He thrusted until he was satisfied.

He came inside me, as usual. I didn't mind since I am currently taking birth controls.

We both are also kind of traumatized with pregnancies, unwanted ones to be exact.

When he was finally done, he went off the shower silently.

I continued showering even if I was feeling a bit sore down there.

You're right, he is sexually abusing of me, but trust me, there are times when I do enjoy it...

But times like this, when he forces me to do so, I just go with it cause he'll hurt me otherwise.

I hopped into my bed right after. I stared at the ceiling, envisioning possible ways to end my life.

Char...

I still have one reason to stay alive, the hope, it's keeping me alive. The hope that in the right time, we'll forgive each other, the hope that he will love me again...

Did he ever love me?

Well, the real question is "is it even worth the hope?"

As time is passing by, my emotions are slowly fading as well. I'm uncertain of how further can I endure his mistreatment...