Unstable; sequel to "No Strings Attached"; Janiel Fan Fiction [COMPLETED]

Ch.20

Joeys POV

I stand in front of the mirror just looking at myself... imperfections flowing through my mind at a rapid pace. Too fat, too short, not pretty, scared up, broken, hair is ugly, ugly, pale, not worth it, whore, pathetic...

I clench my fists together and just keep staring. A tear runs down my cheek as I remember things that happened to me when I was a teen... then something hit me, I remembered something that completely broke my heart... the whole situation ran through my head... the day Daniel raped me...

I fall into the floor and start crying. Just thinking about the person who loves me would actually do that to me. The person who said he would ever hurt me actually did...

I hear a knock on the bathroom door and I pick myself up and wipe my tears. Looking in the mirror and see my eyes are blood shot red, but I didn't care.

I walk to the door and open it, only to see Daniel standing there. I push past him and he stumbles back a little. I walk down the stairs and Daniel is keep calling my name, I keep walking, ignoring him.

I walk into the kitchen and get a bottle of water, I don't trust myself with glass right now. Daniel grabs my shoulder and turns me around. I set the bottle of water down, getting ready to fight again....

D: Joey what did I do this time?

J: it's already done and over with...

D: no seriously tell me, I want to make it right

J: it fucking happened 5 years ago, you can't fix it...

D: aside from the fighting what did I do wrong?!

J: hmm I dunno? FUCKING RAPED AND BEAT ME!

D: I THOUGHT YOU SAID YOU FORGAVE ME!

J: WELL I WAS THINKING AND I REMEMBERED EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENED! IM FUCKING TRAUMATIZED!

D: Joey we seriously had sex like 2 days ago...

J: well it wasn't the same for me... every time someone touches me I always flinch, have you noticed that?

D: yeah...

J: and that is your fucking fault you horny fucking bastard...

D: Joey...

J: don't even start with me Daniel, you might of said sorry but sometimes sorry doesn't fix things... sometimes I have flash backs of that night in my dreams.

D: Joey I'm sorry...

J: how I kicked, screamed, asked you to stop, begged for you to get off of me, how I said it hurt, how I was crying, your face as you looked at me with anger, the way you hit me, the way I was broken...

D: Joey, why are you telling me this all of a sudden...

J: because I can that's why... I'm going to get Emma from school, alone. When I come home I want alone time, I'll be in my room.

I pick up the water and my phone. I push past Daniel again and walk out of the door, slamming it behind me. I get a text message from chloe...

C: what the fuck happened?!

J: talk to Daniel about that, I can't text right now.

I throw my phone on the passenger seat and I start the car. Not speeding because I just healed from that crash, not 100 percent but still healed. My phone buzzes and I look at the seat.... "Danny💖 is calling" i reach over and hit the decline button.