The night was dim with a blue undertone and the moon shone as bright as an angel. The trees loomed over the life of other trees and took away the moonlight that would have once glowed on them. Dead leaves had scattered the ground that were once on a growing tree. I knew this was my place to dance, to feel free. I was willing to dance all night with my violin being stricken at with the bow. The clothes I was wearing however made everything slightly more difficult, but I was determined to pull through the night dancing and playing my violin.
My friend was going to be turning up at any time, so I continued to dance till he arrived. He wasn't someone like me; he was more, he was lifeless. It was midnight and the ravens were sitting perched on a branch watching with curiosity as I danced with my hair and clothes flying in the wind. With each step that I took, more ravens had settled on the ground watching my dark eyes and movements. This was it, this was the night. I was going to finally be able to break free from my mind.
My head jerked towards a crunching sound, a sound like a bone that had been deteriorating for a long time and then had been snapped after so many years. There was movement in the trees and my eyes stared softly at the forming figure that was walking out of the dark. I smiled, my eyes still holding a soft emotion.
"Hello Luna," he said, still walking towards me. His voice was holding an evil undertone but it was being held behind a door.
"Hello Damon," I said, my hands still playing chords on my violin and my feet moving to the beat that was being played.
"Are you ready?" He asked me, his eyes turning into a darker hue. I looked at him and the sound that the violin was producing had stopped abruptly. Was I ready? Was I really going to go through with something so ludicrous and insane. I nodded my head and he starting walking towards me. He snatched the violin and bow out of my hands, though the violin was never there from the beginning. It was only a prick of my imagination.
"You're only a raven, you were never the moon." The words played in my mind, over and over. He was back, he was in my head, scratching at the wounds in my mind. He only ever came back to hurt me when Damon came near me. I needed to break free.
"I'm not a raven!" I shouted to no one. I fell to my knees, tears threatening to leave my eyes. It was taking over me. I was only ever the moon a bright and calming existence, I never was and never will be the darkness.
"Please," I pleaded to Damon, "take it! Take my life away; I don't want it anymore!"
He stared at me with sympathy and walked towards me. One more step to death and one more step to discover if I have been living a miserable lie.
"I need you close your eyes and clear your mind," Damon told me and I did as he said. I sat in silence waiting for anything to happen.
There's a time in your life where everything stops and is put on pause. Are we questioning and waiting for a puzzle to fall in place into the perfect fit or is there more to happen? I was here sitting, waiting and questioning.
My eyes opened and I was surround by black birds flying around in a spiral around myself. Damon was nowhere in sight. I screamed for him, I gave up and sat sprawled on the ground screaming and sobbing. I was gone and this wasn't a part of the plan.
I was only ever a raven.
