messing with the gangleader( book 1)

chapter 8

alexia's POV

when we got back home from the ' ice cream ' place we went back to andres house and when we walked in the living room there was an amused eva and two pissed off boys waiting for us 

" where the fuck have you been " vence asked " uh here where the fuck else would we fucking go " i answered " are you sure cause didnt seem like it when i saw some dirt on my car and weels " matt said angrily and that just made me pissed " ok so what mud doesnt hurt anything does it plus the reason why is because we took a shortcut to reach here when we got rid of you guys going after us when we didnt want you too " gio said trying to get me to cool down but i guess that didnt work because matt just had to open his big ass mouth and pull out his damn gun " i fucking swear i will put a bullet in all of you's head if YOU DONT TELL ME THE FUCKING TRUTH " AND WHAT HUH IF WE TELL YOU WHAT THEN ITS NOT GONNA FIX SHIT AND I DARE YOU TO TOUCH MY FAMILY I FUCKING DARE YOU THEYRE MY FAMILY AND FRIENDS AND TO GET TO THEM YOU HAVE TO GO THROUGH ME SO GO FUCKING AHEAD SHOOT GO AHEAD OR ARE YOU TOO MUCH OF A PUSSY TO DO IT " gio whispered " calm down lex its ok he doesnt mean it just drop it we'll all be fine " i laughed bitterly " if you think im letting this go youre dead ass wrong because you guys helped me go through so many things more then vence ever has " i looked at vence " you didnt keep your promise vence the one you made with my parents you didnt i sucked it up and pretended you were helping but you didnt see through it you didnt see it through my smile but they did like actual siblings should im not saying i hate you or im mad at you im just sayin pay more attention to your surroundings " then looked at matt who was still angry " now back to you mr. oh so bad gangleader go ahead pull the trigger " i said walking up to him andres vence eva and gio screamed telling me to back away and ignored them until i was a few inches away from him " go ahead do you if youre man enough i mean you kill people easily so why not me why the hesitation " he looked at me " im not gonna shoot anyone in this room lex i was just trying to scare you but obviously youre not " i took his hand with the gun towards my right shoulder and put his finger on the trigger the others were in tears telling me to stop and i could see matt pleading with his eyes to let go " you pulled it out go ahead do it cause if you wont i will " he looked shocked and tried to pull away but it was too late i already pushed his finder on the trigger and i fell on the floor but her caught me i could hear muffled screams and someone talking on the phone everything was blurry and i was tired so i closed my eyes and then darkness

matteo's POV

no no no no no no no no this cant be happening i cant believe she made me pull that trigger and now im getting lectured by andres and vence i heard someone scream " no wake up youre not dying on me you fucking idiot i told you to drop it wake the fuck up please " gio begged for her to open her eyes but no response she was still breathing and her heartbeat was normal but she was losing alot of blood we stopped the bleeding eva was still on the phone while gio was ofcourse holding her 

soon the paramedics came and took her away we got in our cars and sped down the road to the hospital they told us to wait in the waiting room eva even tho she barely knew lex was crying on vence's shoulder and sitting on his lap while he glared at me andres was rocking gio back and forth getting her to calm down when she was she looked at me they all sat away from she whispered " its your fault " i looked down " ITS YOUR FAULT SHES HERE ITS YOUR FAULT ALL OF IT WHY DID YOU HAVE TO THREATEN US I DONT KNOW BUT THAT CROSSED THE FUCKING LINE WHYD YOU LET HER DO IT WHY DIDNT YOU STOP HER HUH I THOUGHT YOU WANTED TO GET HER NOT FUCKING HURT HER " she yelled then glared at me " I KNOW OK I FUCKING KNOW SHE DID IT HERSELF I DIDNT DO IT SHE PUSHED MY FINGER I TRIED I KNOW ITS MY FUCKING FAULT " she glared at me then said " you dont deserve her " her words struck like lightning and it kept repeating 

you dont deserve her 

you dont deserve her 

you dont deserve her

i looked up at them with sadness regret and pain they were all looking at me " youre right i dont deserve her all ive done was hurt her these past two days " i stopped and looked down and got up " which is why im leaving she deserves someone better im quitting the game she wins i forfeit not gonna come here im staying at the gang house and im also thinking of dropping out i dont know yet i dont wanna know anything just tell her to forget i ever existed i know you guys are mad at me because its my fault youre not the only angry one im angry at myself which is why im leaving if im not at the gang house then vence youre in charge until i come back " is all i said and walk away to my car and drove off to my favorite spot i pulled over and yelled my lungs out then started to cry 

after a while my phone rang and saw it was vence i let it ring then turned off my phone 

i really fucked up big time