ᴱ ᴺ ᴵ ᴳ ᴹ ᴬ

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Enigma

You remain an incredible spirit and kind eyes, desolation lurking in the profundity of your translucent irises.

You are compassion bundled up in a blanket of self-reliance,
disregarding out the entire human race as you can only witness tranquillity.

Your finesse and ascendancy commands respect from anybody who crosses your path.
You are the stimulus for adjustment in the routine of my existence.

You bring peace to a tempest inside my mind.
A breath of fresh air in my own hurricane that's occurring inside my head.

We experienced chemistry
(this might have sounded bullshit to me before, but it feels right to say now).
That immediate connection from the initial time we laid eyes on each other.

We arised as fire and gasoline.

When it burned, it burned hot,
but it burned brief.

Our discussions proceeded from hours on end.

Conversing regarding our dreams, the future.
Too momentary.
Superficial.
Deep questions met with simplistic answers.

Am I illogical and mistaken to stop?
I sense I'm continuously banging on a door that is sealed.
My knuckles bruised and bloodied from the exertion.

What is on the other side of it?
Your worries, your fears.
Enable me to help carry that burden.

You allowed the remotenesss between us to develop.

Saying you wanted a relationship,
but allowing days, weeks go past with no contact.

I strived to fight for us.
Damn did I try,
but it remains a losing battle.

I hope you discover the one (your one).
Who can unlock that door.
Who makes you euphoric at all times.
Who makes your heart come alive.

Whilst I sit here perceiving that I am not that guy;
I couldn't do that for you.

I want you to be carefree and content.
I want you to flourish.
To succeed at everything you undertake.
Discover everything you have always desired,
but I know you'll achieve them with someone else.

And that's what hurts like hell.