A teenager life

A girl that found her peace in the colors of the world

"You were red and you liked me cause i was blue"

It started with a sunny day.

It's almost summer you can't wait for summer break. Everyone is happy because it's warm outside and for this one time it isn't a depressive rainy day. But not everyone is happy , she's not happy , not at all.

With the things she planned , with the way it goes. She's not happy. And it feels like she's still stuck in the depressive atmosphere of a rainy day while other people are enjoying the weather outside.

She's not outside , she doesn't feel like it. Not this time. She tries to block everything out around her and focus on one thing. It doesn't work.

The stress she's feeling is too much and it's all her damn fault. If she just ... if she just did it the way she planned then she wouldn't be so stressed. She wouldn't feel so fucked up. But she is , and she can't do nothing about it. That's what she tought.

The clock strikes 9. It's much cooler outside now. But still nice to just sit and chill. She's still stuck in her problems. Decided to just take a shower and forget about everything. That's what she's always doing , forgetting about things. And in the end she's blaming herself again because she made a damn fault again.

Taking a shower , feeling a bit relieved , but not enough. Dries her skin and hair , putting on some comfy clothes. But still ... not enough. Walking upstairs to the attic where the laundry is still laying on the ground. She opened the door to her parents room. Warm orange light hitting her face , she smiled. She looked out of the window , the clouds already clearing and the sun made slowly his way down the horizon. Grabbing a chair to stand on just to see the whole view. Opening up the window a little more so she could see everything. Pink , purple and a deep orange.

She felt free , and for the first time she felt not stuck between her problems or her hometown. She felt alive. Just because of some colors in the sky. She felt peace and relieve in that part of the day. So  when she was stressed she just tought of that one day , that day when she felt so free and so at peace , just to clear her mind and start over again. Isn't that what everyone deserves. A New start.