We walked out of the hall into a sea of people. Everyone in Asgard was attending the funeral. We walked with the crowd towards the ceremonial area. The crowd stopped moving. I stood on my tippy toes trying to see why we stopped moving. I looked around and noticed there was nowhere else to move it was packed. I turned to Loki, "Loki there's nowhere else to go." Loki nodded his head, "Well thank Odin that I am gifted with magic." With that we appeared at the head of crowd right next to Odin. "Ah Loki, Loviisa I'm glad you made it. I need to speak with you Loviisa." I gulped. Why did Odin want to talk to me? "Come Loviisa lets talk." I followed Odin a little way away from the crowd. "Loviisa I know you and Siff's relationship became strained over the years but I think Siff would have liked to known you were at her funeral." I nodded. "I also believe she would have liked you to be one of the people to carry her to the ship." I shook my head. "Odin I don't think I should. Siff and I were friends a long time ago. I'm not sure she would approve." Odin smiled and shook his head, "Loviisa my dear child Siff cared deeply for you. I know she may not have showed it but she really did care. She came to me after your little incident with each other and pleaded your case. She didn't want me to banish you. I think that proves that she would want you around her last few minutes on Asgard." I nodded my head, tears coming to my eyes. Siff pleaded my case? Why didn't she tell me? I wouldn't have attacked her. "Loviisa please don't cry. You should be happy for the dead they no longer have to suffer." I smiled and nodded my head. "Come let us join the others." I walked with Odin towards everyone and joined Loki again. "Are you alright?" I nodded my head, "I just found out I am going to be carrying Siff to the ship." "That's quite an honor. You should be proud." I gave him a weak smile, "Yeah I guess so. I don't think I deserve it." Loki opened his mouth but closed it when Thor walked through the crowd. "Thor my son where have you been?" "I have been copping father. I needed to get away before the funeral." Odin nodded and walked away. "Hello brother. I am sorry for your loss." Thor turned and hugged Loki. "Thank you Loki. It means a lot to me that you came to honor Siff." Loki patted Thor's back as he pulled away. I never seen Thor so miserable, he looked terrible. As I was staring at Thor I noticed someone was missing. Where was she? Ah, there she is. Freja was standing next to Odin nodding her head. Odin noticed me staring and gestured for me to come over to Freja and him. I walked over to Odin, "Yes Odin?" "Loviisa, you and Freja shall be carrying Siff to the boat and Thor shall light it up and push it out into the water fall." Freja and I nodded. "I think we should get started with ceremony." Odin walked to the front of the crowd as me and Freja took our places. I stood next Loki and Freja was next to Thor. Odin cleared his throat, "Friends we are here today to acknowledge a death of one the greatest and few female warriors we have ever had. Siff was a beautiful, brilliant young woman and Asgard will suffer greatly with her loss. Siff was like a daughter to me and actually almost became my daughter in law. It is a shame it never happened but I know my son Thor will never forget his beautiful bride." I heard sniffling and noticed Thor wiping his eyes. "Siff left behind many who cared for her. Along with my son she grew up with two wonderful friends. Loviisa, Freja, and Siff were tied to the hip when they were children. You could often see the three young girls running around pretending to be warriors and showing the boys who was boss. It always made me happy to see them running around and having fun enjoying life. I thought it would be proper for Siff's childhood friends to take her to her ship that would lead her to her next journey. Loviisa, Freja will you please join me?" Freja and I walked with Odin into an over hang. There was a canoe with flowers in it. I stopped walking I couldn't move any further. I didn't want to see Siff's body laying there knowing I was the one who put it there. Odin noticed me standing there and smiled, "Loviisa I know it is hard to see your friend like this but you need to do this. I don't know any other two people Siff would want to carry her." I nodded, "Odin I don't know if I can." Odin walked over to me and grabbed my hand. "My dear child I know you can do it for your friend." I nodded and walked over to the canoe. I put my hands on the handle trying not to look at Siff. "Are you two ready?" Freja and I nodded our heads. Odin nodded back and gestured for us to follow. We walked out into the view of crowd. Cries of misery started the moment we walked out. Odin began to speak, "Loviisa and Freja shall now carry Siff to her boat." Odin nodded at us and we began to walk. It was hard walking through the crowd hearing people crying and knowing that I caused all this misery. As we walked I noticed Siff's parents. They looked so miserable. I wanted to apologize to them but I didn't know how. I turned my gaze away from them and focused on walking. We reached the edge of the waterfall and there in the water was a beautiful Viking ship. We walked up the plank and onto the ship. There was a bed of flowers in the middle of ship. We placed Siff down on the flowers. Freja began to walk away but I stood there looking at Siff. Her voice played in my head, "We'll be best friends forever." I wiped a tear from my eye and shook my head, "So much for being best friends. I'm sorry." Freja put a hand on shoulder and we walked away. We walked down the plank and stood next to Odin. Odin began to talk, "It is now the time to say goodbye to Siff. Enjoy Valhalla my dear child." Odin turned to Thor and nodded. Thor looked up at the ship and shook his head. "I can't father. It's too much." "I didn't think you would be able to my son. Archers if you would please." A line of archers lit there arrows and shot them at the ship. Odin turned to me and Freja, "Would you like to push the ship?" I nodded and walked up to the ship. With Freja help I shoved the boat into the water. The boat drifted off into the water. The archers continued to shoot there arrows as the boat floated towards the waterfall. The boat was now in flames and the sounds of misery became loader. I noticed Thor hugging Freja sobbing into her shoulder. I looked away from them and noticed Siff's parents crying and Odin speaking words of comfort to them. I quickly looked away and saw Siff's boat going over the edge of the waterfall. She was gone. I started to cry and felt the world starting to spin. I had to get out of here. I began to walk away when someone began to hug me. It was Loki, "Loviisa why don't we go for a walk?' "No I need to be alone." Loki shook his head, "I don't think this is the time for you to be alone." "I. need. To. Be. Alone." He looked a bit taken back but I didn't care at the moment. I pushed away from him and began to run. I didn't know where I was going but I kept running. I suddenly felt like I knew where I wanted to go. I kept running until I finally saw it. I stopped dead in front of the spot where we always played as kids. It looked exactly the same. Why would it change? I smirked to myself and sat down. It felt the same; the grass was still as soft as I remembered. I laid back and looked at the clouds. I could hear Siff's voice, "That one looks like a bird." I smirked, "No it doesn't. It looks like a dragon." "No it looks like a dog." I jumped up and saw Freja smiling down at me. "Reminiscing are we?" I lay back down and nodded. "Don't be sad Loviisa." Freja lay next to me. "How can you say that? You know what I did." "Yes I do know what you did but I feel both you and Siff are to blame for this. If Siff didn't antagonize you, you wouldn't have attacked her. And if you didn't have such a bad temper you wouldn't have attacked her." I nodded my head. "And if Siff didn't keep the truth from you she would probably be alive." The truth? I turned and looked at Freja, "What do you mean?" She smirked at me. "I know Odin told you she pleaded your case. Don't give me that look, I know things. Siff never truly stopped being your friend. She was too proud to tell you though. Remind you of anyone." I smirked. I knew she was referencing to me. "Any way she claimed she tried talking to you but said you wouldn't listen. I don't believe it though I have a feeling she lost her patience with you the moment she found out Loki was the one who brought you out of the forest." "What do you mean "Lost her patience with me after Loki got me out of the forest"?" "Well Siff made it her private mission to be the one to get you out of your depressed state and bring you back to civilization. I always told her she made it seem more dramatic then it really was but she never agreed. So we would always search the forest for you and could never find you. Well actually that's not entirely true. One time when we were searching for you I found you lying with Loki talking. I didn't want to disturb you so I walked away and didn't tell Siff. When you and Loki were officially a couple Siff was outraged. She personally hated Loki. Couldn't tell you why though. Ever since then she made it her personal mission to break you guys up and she succeed. That's why you attacked her right?" I looked up at the sky trying to remember why exactly I attacked her. "I'm not really sure. I know she's partly to blame but it was mostly me and Loki. She didn't deserve to pay with her life because of it." Freja nodded and shrugged, "Well what's done is done. As I said you're both to blame for this tragedy." We sat in silence for a while when Freja spoke. "Where were you and Loki?" "We weren't anywhere." Freja smirked, "Don't lie to me. I heard the rumors; you guys were spending some quality time together. So what did you do? Where were you?" I smirked at the memories and shook my head. "We didn't do anything and we were somewhere on Midgard." Freja looked a bit disappointed and continued to look at the clouds. "WAIT!" I jumped up at the sudden shout. "Why are you yelling?" Freja was sitting up and smiling at me, "You dirty little liar. You and Loki did do something. You wouldn't have smirked if you didn't." Damn! She knew me too well. I shook my head, "Freja I always smirk it's like a reflex now and I told you we didn't do anything." Freja shook her head and her smile grew bigger. "Oh please do not try to pass that off as a muscle spasm. You guys had sex didn't you?" Odin, she knew me too well. I can't lie to her she already knows anyway. I nodded my head. Freja jumped up and pulled me up with her. I was trying to catch my balance when Freja tackled me in a hug and knocked me down. "Ugh, can you please make up your mind." Freja jumped up and smiled at me, "I knew you guys did it. So?" She looked at me with eager eyes. "So what?" I slowly got to my feet prepared to be knocked down again. "So what? I want to know how it was. Was it great or did it suck?" I smirked, "I'm not telling you anything. It is none of your business and besides you never tell me anything that happens between you and Thor." Freja's face hardened. "That is none of your business. What happens to me and Thor stays between me and Thor." I smiled at her, "Of course, why should I expect anything different? Since your life is privet so is mine." Freja glared at me and shoved me. Ugh! Why did she keep doing that? I looked up and noticed a branch in my face. "Ahh, a change in weapon Freja?" "Knock it off Loviisa you know me and Thor's relationship is not suppose to exist." I smirked, "Well it does exist Freja. It has existed for quite some time. When he was dating Siff it existed, when he was suppose to marry Siff it existed, and even when he found out Siff was dead it existed. It has always been there you are just in denial." I saw a flash of fury in Freja's face and saw her arm move. "Arg!" I screamed in pain. Freja smashed the tree branch across my face. I felt my blood trickling down my cheek. "What the hell Freja? I was just joking around!" Freja was standing over me glaring at me. "If that was you joking around you suck at jokes. You better stop being such an ass Loviisa or your going to get rid of the few friends you have." I felt another sharp pain in my arm and watched Freja walk away. "Bitch!" Freja stopped in her tracks and turned around. "What did you call me?" I smirked, "Come now Freja don't tell me Thor's lack of intelligence rubbed off on you." I saw the loss of control in her eyes and she began to charge back at me. Come on move faster. She was a foot away from me with her fists raised. COME ON! Freja lunged forward and I cringed waiting for the hit but there was nothing. I looked up and saw Loki leaning over me and Thor holding Freja back. Freja was trying to get past him while Loki stood over me glaring at her. I got up and put a hand on Loki's shoulder. "Relax its ok. Let her go Thor." Loki and Thor looked at me looking a bit confused. "If I let her go she will attack you." "Yes I know that Thor it's not like I don't deserve it." Loki had a concerned look on his face but I walked past him ignoring him. "Let her go please." Thor hesitated but let go of Freja slowly. Freja pushed Thor out of the way and charged at me. Thor put a hand out to stop her but Loki pushed it away. Freja stopped right in front of me. She was an inch from my face. "Never speak ill of Thor when I am around" I smirked, "I'll try to remember that, not making any promises though. He's not exactly the brightest." Freja leaned forward but Thor pulled her away. "Freja let us leave. You need to calm down." Freja glared at me and walked away with Thor right behind her. I smirked and began to walk away. "Loviisa what is wrong with you?" I completely forgot Loki was there. I turned and smiled at him. "Well I just watched my friend go over the waterfall that's part of the problem. Another part is that I'm the one who put her there! Oh and another part is that your DAMN FATHER AND FREJA BOTH KNEW THAT SIFF PLEADED MY CASE AND WANTED TO BE FRIENDS BUT DECIDED NOT TO TELL ME EVEN THOUGH THEY KNEW I HAD A TERRIBLE TEMPER AND WAS BOUND TO TAKE IT OUT ON HER! DO YOU WANT TO KNOW WHY SHE WAS MADE AT ME? BECAUSE YOU WERE THE ONE WHO GOT ME TO COME OUT OF THE FOREST! SO THE ONES TRULY TO BLAME FOR SIFF'S DEATH IS YOU, YOUR FATHER, FREJA AND ME! THAT IS WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME!" I stood there breathing heavily waiting for Loki to say something. He stood there looking at me. I couldn't tell what he was thinking his eyes looked glassy. "Well are you going to say anything?" He shook his head and walked over to me. He pulled me toward him and hugged me. I collapsed into him and began to cry. He rubbed my back and whispered in my ear, "Let it out, it's going to be ok."
