"I know, I know. I just have to make sure that everything is right." I told him
"Trust me you're gonna get into these colleges and if they don't accept you then I feel bad for them" He said
I lightly smiled and rested my forehead on his.
"Come on lets just have a chill day. You probably need it" He semi-whispered
"Fine" I sighed giving in
"Alright lets go" He smiled
I got up off of his lap and picked up my Jordan 4's from the side of my bed and slid them on. I grabbed my phone and purse and waited for Chris to get up. He got up and we walked down the steps.
"Oh my gosh yes your getting her out of the house thank you!" My mom said hugging Chris
"Wow I love you two mommy" I laughed
"Alright you too go ahead" She said shooing us off
I playfully rolled my eyes and walked to Chris' car with him following behind and getting into the driver's seat. As he was driving it was silent but a very comfortable one.
Chris' POV:
It felt good to be laying here chilling with Saraih. I've been lonely as shit since school started. Sooner or later hanging out with the bros gets boring and being in a house by yourself gets annoying. I seriously was considering not going to college and working on my music but I actually let the words that Saraih said to me sink in and she has a point. Besides, although she left me here to live by myself and doesn't even stay in contact, I still have a huge amount of respect for my mom and she raised me for a good portion of my life and I feel like I owe it to her to grow up and do something good. You know just make a difference some way, some how. Saraih was cradled up to me tracing my tattoos and we were just laying back vibing to music.
This shit is so relaxing it just gets me calm and I don't even know why. She's one of the few people who gets the reasoning behind all of my tattoos. When I got them I wasn't like those dumb niggas just getting one to get it. Each one has a symbolic meaning. Some have obvious meanings but others only I know. I was so deep in my thoughts just thinking about everything. Then one particular thing came to my mind.I thought back to graduation day when Saraih had a breakdown and she said that she regretted meeting me. I can't even lie, that stung to here those words come out of her mouth. It just made me feel like I've failed at making her happy. I just feel unwanted sometimes so that just got to me. But, I never said anything about it because I thought that It would eventually stop bothering me. When in actuality it still bothers me alot. I was knocked out of my thoughts when Saraih asked
"Chris do you have some weed?"
"Why are you asking me that?" I answered
"I just need to ease my mind. My whole body" She said sighing
"Saraih I'm not about to let you smoke that. It's more than what you think" I told her thinking about all of the times I had ever gotten high.
"Chris I've smoked it before. It's not that big of a deal" She said and I could tell that she was getting frustrated
"Okay. If I give it to you then we both have to agree to something." I said
"Okay" She said
"After this we can't get into the habit of smoking this. Only on rare occasions alright?" I said
"Okay Chris I'm not a child just give me the shit so I can roll it up" She said sitting up
I'm not even about to lie, weed is relaxing as hell but things come with it. It's way past just being high and I let that shit fuck me over before so I try to stay away from it. I got of of my bed going into my dresser and getting a jar of weed,paper, and a lighter. I sat back on the bed sitting the jar and lighter in the middle, gave her some paper and start rolling up. I lit my blunt and she lit hers. We lay back inhaling and exhaling the smoke. For some reason, smoking the weed just made my mind wander even more. I really need to get this off my chest.
"Raih." I said
"Hm?" She said groggily
"On graduation day." I began
"Mhm" She said inhaling from her blunt
"You said you regret meeting me. Did you mean it" I said with the words just flowing out
"I-I don't know" She said calmly but I could tell that she was thinking
"Oh alright" I said sitting up. How does she not know
"Wait" She said slowly sitting up and grabbing my arm
"I didn't mean it. I was just under a lot of stress and I just needed some way to get all of my hurt and anger out so I said those words so you could get how bad I was hurting...Chris I haven't even turned 18 yet and all of that happened it's just too much" She said. I looked at her and her eyes were red and low. Yep the full affect of the weed hit her.
"I understand. Shit I was hurting too but I couldn't show it because what good would it have done if we were both just laying here depressed? Then whou wouldv'e lifted our spirits? I had to be here to be that person. The person to lift your spirits." I told her
"Thank you. Well, I'm okay now. The only thing we can do is move on and keep it on our thoughts" She said then laid back down. I layed back down along with her and held her in my arms. I'm glad I finally let that out. She lightly kissed my cheek then I soon heard snoring. I stared at the walls for a minute then eventually drifted off to sleep.
Okay guys I'm so sorry for taking so long to update but like I said in the beginning school has been a lot. and I know that this chapter is so boring but I had to put in a filler to prepare for the next chapter so forgive me. Anyways, don't forget to VOTE,COMMENT,FOLLOW. Questions that can be answered in the comments will be listed below:
Which College do you think Saraih is gonna go to?
Do you think Chris' decision of going to college is a good one or do you think he should work on his music?
Do you think Chris' parents will ever come back?
Chapter #17
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