A Spark In Winter

A Life Or Death Matter

*3 days later, Felix's House, In His Room, 6:00 PM*

(Zen's P.O.V)

       Matt was still broken. He didn't want to talk to me, or anybody. His Mom called to apologize for everything, but he didn't answer. What she doesn't understand is that shit like what she did mortally wounds someone for life. Emotional pain is worse than physical. At least you can heal from physical. I still hated her myself, and I didn't see myself forgiving her, so it all mattered on Nature's hands. Let nature take its course. I'm beginning to think even Nature doesn't care anymore, given the circumstances. You're probably wondering how I heard about all this, huh? Felix told me everything.

       "Hey Matt...I have dinner for you." He looked at me, his eyes puffy with tears. "I'm not hungry." He moaned, looking out the window. "Come on man, you haven't eaten for a day. The other 2, you've barely stomached anything. You need something." I sighed, sitting beside him. He didn't even pay attention to me, hardly. "No. I'm fine, just let me think." He looked out again, sighing. "I don't understand why my mom hates me over this. She's overreacting." He told me, as I sat over to him.

       "I don't know, man. She's just crazy or something." I chuckled, turning serious again. "Hey man...come on, eat. I wanna see the old Matt again...the guy I whooped at Black Ops III!" I nudged his shoulder, smiling a bit. "Come on..." I nudged him again. He gave me a light smile and took a bite, standing up a second. "Thank you Felix. You know I love you, but...I love my parents too...all of this happening just kills me." Matt gave me a hug, smiling into my shoulder. "Never do cease to keep me happy." He sighed, tears in his eyes. I gave an awkward smile, hugging him back. He'd confused me for Felix, somehow.

       He gave me another short gaze, his teary, puffy eyes shining so blue and wonderfully, I wanted to hug them. If he wasn't beautiful enough, his eyes finished him off. "Hey...man. Are you drunk?" I sighed, looking at him. "No...I'm not." He hiccuped a bit, looking at me. "I know you are man. Don't joke with me...come on." I walked over to him, spotting a few bottles of my dad's beer on the bed. "Sheesh man...you're crazy." I sighed. He'd drank 14 bottles. I started to try to pick him up, and he smiled at me. "Hey...ya wanna know something, Felix?" He chuckled, looking at me.

       I didn't want to hurt his feelings, so I ignored him calling me Felix. "Y-yes?" I gulped, looking at him as he pressed my head to his. "Felix, you're gorgeous..." He sighed lovingly, smiling and moving to kiss me. I didn't realize it, but I was on the bed, which was clear of bottles. I moved them. "Come on..." He smiled, tugging at my shirt. I looked at him, petrified. "U-uh...c-can we...not?" I looked awkwardly again, my eyes wide. "What Felix? C-come on. Ya know you want to." He said, unbuckling my jeans. He slipped off my underwear as he said, "You're excited already?"

       I indeed was rock hard against him. Which I avoided. He was Felix's boyfriend, not mine. I wasn't even gay. I'd dabbled a bit into it a few years ago, but it was nothing serious. "Y-yeah...?" My voice cracked as I watched him. He seemed a little more sober, enough to know what he wanted, but not who from. "C-can we s-stop?" I gulped as my tip slipped from my sheath, pressing against Matt's size. "Stop what?" He looked at me with a smile I couldn't resist admiring. Damn it! I swore to Felix, I wouldn't do this. He was just so gorgeous. "N-nevermind." I widened my eyes, easing them as I kissed him.

       It felt so right to me, and I wasn't one to say no to somebody. Neither was Matt. I felt his tip press against me as it began to slip in, his size stretching me as I breathily moaned, smiling at him. He gave a soft smile back, as we french kissed, Matt pulling in and out, pressing against me softly with each thrust. I decided, since I was hard myself, to relieve myself. Matt chuckled, as I stroked my size against myself. "A-ah M-matt!" I choked out, as he stretched me, hitting the deepest spots inside of me. He was certainly shorter than me, but wow did he pleasure well. "I-I love you..." I choked on those words, amazed at myself.

       It was so wrong to do this to my brother's boyfriend, but maybe one time, not telling, it wouldn't hurt anybody..right? He thrust into me wilder, still going a bit softer, but enough to make me tense against him, which made him only go faster. I felt his knot tense up against me, as it pressed at my tail hole, waiting to enter. My mind flurried with thoughts. "Tell him!", "Stop this!", "Keep going!", "It feels amazing! Let him do this!" and it was all so much. I blurted out, as he continued against me. "I-M-Matt...I-I'm not F-Felix!" He didn't hear me again as his knot pressed against me, slipping into me. "Matt! I'm not Felix!" I yelled at him, as he released his load into me.

       If only he heard me a second ago! "Matt! I'm not Felix!" I repeated, as he looked at me, confused. "O..." He sobered a little more, "Zen?!" He suddenly sobered much more, which turned to just a buzz, it seemed. "Yes! I...I didn't tell you, b-because...it's so confusing!" I sighed, looking at him. "Y-you should have t-told me..." He stuttered out, nervous. "Felix...what if...oh no." I tried to sit up a bit, Matt's size preventing me. "Try not to tell him. This was all an accident." My eyes darted around madly, examining the room. "Fuck!" He tugged on me, his knot tight and stuck. "Ahhh..." I sighed, irritated, laying there.

       "I shouldn't have enjoyed that, but I did." I confessed, looking at him again. "As long as nobody hears about this...we should be alright." He smiled at me, his eyes of blue filling me with a certain calmness. "O-okay...we should be." I smiled, hugging him. "Damn you're big." I chuckled. "Yeah...I know." He kissed my cheek, as I felt him soften a bit. "Hey man...we might wanna hurry, and I'm just small enough to pull out. Hold on." I looked at him, as he grabbed my hips, pulling roughly out of me. As if my tail hole didn't throb enough, it did just then. I yiped from this, moving back onto him. "Fuck!" I whisper-yelled, looking at him. "Fine...I'll just rest here a second." He laughed a bit. "We'll be alright, don't worry." He smiled. "No one will know."

(Felix's P.O.V)

       As I walked over to my room to check on Matt, I heard a voice from my brother. "Matt...we'll be alright. Don't worry." I sat against the door, angry. I had the thought that Matt was cheating on me. Maybe I worried too much. Maybe they were just hanging out, or something. I continued listening on, my ear pressed to the keyhole. I heard Matt say, "Its a one time deal. And I was pretty drunk, anyways." He chuckled, as I kept my calm and quietness, investigating all this.

       I heard my brother, Zen, laugh a bit and say, "I know. Lets just keep this quiet, and no one will know, okay?" I heard him chuckle as he opened the door, thwacking me in the head. "O-oh! H-hey bro!" He laughed, looking at me. "Everything alright?" I looked at him, uttering a single word. "Leave." As I shoved him aside, looking straight at Matt. "What the fuck happened?!"