Trigger and Bullets

bullet 20 - after the masquerade

Did Zeus turn his back at me, too? Like... like what Ella did? A lump started to form in my throat and I withheld myself to sink to that feeling again. What happened to Cole was my fault, so if she gets angry with me it is a normal reaction of her being his sister. Parang kapag sumabog ang araw mawawalan na rin ng liwanag ang buwan---normal lang. I should accept it professionally because it IS normal.

But damn this lump in my throat, it was making my pathetic tired eyes to leak its precious waters! Hindi ako apektado... hindi ako apektado... bulong ko sa sarili ko.

Dahil sa wala na akong ibang magagawa kundi ang manatili sa unit ko, pagkatapos kong ayusin ang sarili ko ay nagpaubaya na muna ako sa aking antok. I lay down on my oh so comfy couch not on my oh so much comfy bed. I expected to have nightmares dahil sa mga nangyari sa kuta nila Devin. The photos I had seen in one of their rooms will be flashed on my mind even in deep sleep. The red strikes of lights will dance like evil fireflies in my mind even in the deepest darkness.

Devin... and the rest... they were monsters---real badboys. I used to think that these godlike looking gangsters, badboys, thuds that I read and see in films were cool. Ngayon hindi ko na alam kung bakit nahuhumaling ang mga babae sa mga gangsters. Ugh! bakit nga ba ako nasama sa cryptic na kwento nila? Dahil sa kamukha ko ba ang minamahal niyang si Lorraine? Tss. He was pathetic, a badboy who was in-love with a ghost!

 

He was still in-love? Tss! Grandly pathetic!

He was deeply in-love with Lorraine? Tss! Fantastically pathetic!

Lorraine was his Juliet, why was he still alive? Tss!

A soft tap on my shoulders woke me up. Kung ordinaryong tulog ang pinanggalingan ko ay nagkaroon na ng ika-tatlong pandaigdigang gera dahil sa ginising ako ng nilalang na ito. My sleep was not an ordinary sleep, pasalamat siya. For the first time in my life nanaginip ako ng blangko, iyong alam kong nananaginip ako pero wala akong nakikita kundi kadiliman. And hell, I knew my thoughts had been lingering on Devin's stupid tragic love affair.

"Hindi ngayon ang oras ng paghimbing, Venice."

Zeus' voice sapped all my drowsiness and the moment I opened my eyes I lunged to kill him.

"YOU son of a gay dog!"

Biglaan at hindi inaasahan ang ginawa kong atake kaya napa-upo si Zeus sa sahig dahil sa tulak ko. I stared at him in raged, and in confusion---nagawa ko siyang maitulak? Uh! Seriously? He slightly shook his head while holding his right temple. Napansin kong may suot pa rin siyang mga armas.

"Manners, please," isinatinig ng isa pang nilalang malapit sa tinatayuan ko. Tinapunan ko nang masamang tingin si Canary. She was sitting like a real princess in one of my chairs. She was still in her blood stained shirt. Mukhang hindi naging problema ang tama ng bala sa kanya dahil kung makaupo siya ay parang--whatever. Ibinalik ko kay Zeus ang aking mga mata.

"You humiliated me! I own this place, Zeus! Sino ka para ikulong ako?!"

"Your friend is okay by now. Stable na ang kanyang mga vital signs. Muntik na tayong mahuli sa pagligtas sa kaibigan mo, eh eh." Sa halip na pansinin ng matatalas kong salita ay ang balita kay Cole ang unang lumabas sa kanyang bibig. I mentally breathed a sigh of relief. I was thankful that he was safe.