Hayate the combat butler: The missing link

Waiting for the destiny

Finally, a P.O.V. of Hayate. Well there will be two to three more chapters on him. I intend to end this fanfic in about 20 chapters. I'm waiting for your responses.

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At last, end of a tiring day. Although each day is exhausting nowadays. Rather, I've always done my best each and everyday in my life. I spend my whole day with so many people, but when I return to my room at the end of the day, I find myself with no one to talk.

But my life surely has changed these days. I myself am surprised by this. I, who could not even rightfully passed the entrance examination of Hakuo, could get a scholarship recently. The amount is not enough but my study expenses have decreased. All credit goes to Maria-san. Without her guidance, it was simply impossible.

My new public high school is quite good. Unlike my friends from my first high school, they can understand my situation. Well,Ayumu was an exception. She is always so kind to me. So is Hinagiku-san. No, everybody I met in this past year, has been kind to me.

I meet with my old friends now and then. Hinagiku-san invited me in her birthday but unfortunately I could not attend. It's good to see her not mourning over my rejection. It's so like her.

Many a thing also has not changed in my life. Like my childhood companion, my misfortune. I get often stuck with some issues of student council, to help the members out. And this valentine's day I received some chocolates too, I was so surprised.

My part time job makes me too busy during the day. I haven't hid my actual age this time, but they are overall happy in my performance. Though I now have enough time to study. And as my duties have decreased a lot, I can have proper rest now. I don't know why but I still continue my training now.

This loneliness of mine has presented a new opportunity to me. I sometimes introspect on my deeds. I am no more sad about what happened in the last year. But a thought recently occurred in my mind. The problems and misunderstandings that have been revolving around me for so many years, is this only my terrible luck that caused all of these? Now I think that I use my bad luck as an excuse to escape. To escape from myself actually. I just let things happen which goes on. Yes, I became desperate when I was sold and when I got the chance to get rid of my debts. But if I were to face my deeds and its consequences,I would not hide from milady for three months.

As I got the chance to renew my friendships with everyone, I think it is not only my luck that they get the wrong idea about me. Sometimes I cannot express my thoughts properly and cannot explain many of my steps. I cannot blame mistress to misunderstand me during our first meeting, can I? I am now trying to think about it a bit before I take any actions. I often forget about it though. But I believe it may help me to deal with others. Maybe thus I can avoid more mishaps like what happened to lady Nagi.

I wonder how she is doing. The words of Himegami that 'Nagi will loose everything ' still haunts me. It's like the worst nightmare I can ever have. I always want to protect her. Her smile, her happiness. But I misunderstood her at some point. She gave up her future for my well-being. But I wanted to restore her fortune to have a chance to escape from the misunderstanding. I got that wrong actually. Maybe I still have the mindset of a six years old.

She did loose everything. Not when she gave the lotto's key to Hisui, but when I broke her heart. How can I even think of replacing her family with money! I myself want to protect her not because of her wealth but as she reminds me that there is still some goodness left in this world. Shd is the cause I am not a kidnapper by now. I actually protect my humanity through her!

That day when I talked to Maria-san, I suddenly felt something. I felt that she can manage the burden now, she Is growing up. I always thought that our relationship is not complete but that day I could trust our bond.

I always wanted to be by her side on the days of struggling. But when she fired me, I could no more worry for her. I realized that it was the time to bid goodbye. She seemed to be so mature at that moment.

I deeply feel that we both need this separation right now. It is the time for both of us to grow up. For me, mostly. No matter what happens, we must endure. That's why that day I could only express my utmost gratitude to her.

These months surely are too hard for her. But I cannot interfere her growth anymore. I must stay away from her. So I never ask anyone about lady Nagi . I know she is okay. She is doing her best. No, she is surpassing her limits day by day.

She lost that manga competition last year. So she could not buy me a watch in my birthday. She promised me to buy one in future. I miss the days with her badly. I have to present Maria-san an expensive purse too. This summer,I intend to visit my brother once. Even if he cannot recognize me as his brother, I will help him out in his business. And I will thank him for taking care of my parents for me.

When I look at the starry sky, I remember a godly voice telling me to help her whenever she calls me. I reassure the stars, you do not have to worry about lady Nagi anymore. Although I am not with her, she will be just fine. And I am eagerly waiting if fate crosses our paths again someday.

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Here I have something to discuss. Hope this chapter is not too unlikely to him. Maybe it is hard for him to have a scholarship out of the blue. But I believe if he can secure his financial issues, only then he can have the mental peace needed for a thorough introspection. Please let me know how you feel about this chapter. Next chapter, a P.O.V. of Ruka!!