Tragedy between You & Me

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priorities?

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"Ma, Nandito na ako!" Sigaw ko, Knowing what already happened, I searched upstairs kung nandoon sila. But they're all gone.

I was proved wrong nang makita ko ang Mama ko na nakalupasay sa kusina. Crying, she held my twin siblings.

"Ma.." My eyes started to swell up, as the rush of feelings banged my head as if I was a wall. I tried to envelope her in a hug which she refused.

"Kasalanan mo 'to eh." Hindi siya tumingin sa akin nung una, pero nung magsasalita na ako bigla siyang tumingin sa akin at nagsalita, "I tried so hard to encourage him not leave us kasi baka hindi natin kayanin. Pero anong ginawa mo? You did otherwise, you encourage him to do the opposite thing!"

"Pero Ma, Hindi mo ba naiisip yung nararamdaman ni Papa?" I asked her

"Ikaw Mikaela, Hindi mo ba naiisip ang nararamdaman namin?"

Doon 'ko naramdaman ang guilt, yung tipong parang ako ang nag-desisyon na umalis ang Papa 'ko. Parang ako yung nag-palaya at hinayaang masaktan ang mama ko. I decided to let go of my dad without thinking the consequences, the what ifs, and what my left family will feel.

"Ako ba? Ako ba talaga yung.. dahilan kung bakit siya umalis?" Tanong 'ko, as the tears I'm trying to hold slowly fell down.

"Oo, that's why you need to leave first because I can't bear looking at you right now." Rocco and Yuan started crying as if naintindihan nila ang sinabi ni Mama.

"What?"

"You heard me, sa mga Tita Connie mo ka muna tumira. Just give me time to think and understand the situation."

"She already knows?"

"Oo, kaya umalis ka na please, atleast do this for the sake of us." She explained na parang ang dali dali niyang mag paalis ng 'anak' sa bahay.

"I already packed your things, Pinauwi lang kita para makuha mo iyang mga 'yan." she pointed at the side. "Now, Go!"

"Ma, just to let you know. Hindi ako aalis nang iniisip na pinalayas mo 'ko, Iisipin 'ko na I have to go...for us." I sighed, kasabay ng pagtulo ng luha 'ko. I went to her, Rocco, and Yuan to give them kisses on the cheek bidding them goodbye.

Hindi ako tiningnan ni Mama hanggang sa makalabas na ako dala-dala ang ilan sa mga gamit 'ko. Naupo muna ako sa sidewalk, at nagsimulang umiyak ulit.

Everyhing that happened tonight was a big disaster. I thought just like every other night, we'll just eat and bond. But it was all the opposite and was worse. The most stereotype thing to say right now is 'How could this happen to me?' Para akong bida sa isang novel at pinapaikot ng isang writer. I wish this was all just a dream.

Sana isa lang 'tong masamang panaginip.

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