unspoken conversation

Untold conversation!

I am awfully stuck in the end
Just memories that hurts to begin
I am wondering what's beyond
And yet, less certain and sure
Your the one that exists
I am the one that fades
Far way, so far away from the world full of shits

The shattered dream of past
Unholy absence of my heart
Violent crimes that crumbles
Keeps breaking me apart
The silent wanderer in solitude
Will not be there for soon
Pain brought me to my knees
Cold Desperate nights with no sleep
I am stuck within this feel
Salvation is not my thing.
Worst part of me ...
I suck at skipping attention
And yet you fail to consume me ...
My patience seek for detention

Poor me oh, poor me
Why can't you see ...
Happy I want to be ..
Lonely you push me to be
Why do you exist within me
I am the skin, you are the open wound ...
I feel , and you just take time to heal .

Shall I Thank you for being selfish
Will you admire me for being brave
All those memories that rains everyday
Whispers me not to behave ...
I will observe you silently
Keep playing with my demons
I am watching them quietly
Preparing for my turn
Training myself privately.