Gruesome

The cigarette between Jovan's fingers is getting burnt throughout the time but he hardly has any attention to that. Today he should have been in an elated mood but he is not actually. He is depressed, but why? He has accomplished what he wanted to. No matter how, he's done. That is the point to count for. He got divided into two individual entities within himself.

You have got your dream real, still sad ? What's wrong !

Who the hell it is ! Whoever it is, should know Jovan is not sad. He is perfect as always. Just relaxing his mind, as it is a bit excited with multiple thought processes going on.

He has no remorse or guilt for what he has done. It was not an involuntary action. It was done quite deliberately. So why to regret? But these words are supposed to fail in pleading against the other entity.

He thought it to be the toughest from the experience from his mom's turn but it wasn't. It was quite easy just to push something in. He is trying his best to calm his mind down by praising for proficiency in such an audacious but easy job. Which demands severe mental strength.

Still You have plenty of things to do left. You are passing time in ease. It is not the time for kidding you know.

Yeah, no way to avoid this. He has a lot of things to do but daddy is sleeping. It won't be fair to interrupt.

You scoundrel ! What have you left to do with him? Now you are saying you are not supposed to disturb him !

Daddy is going to gods, whom he liked the most. Isn't it a good thing to make someone meet whom they admire the most. Obviously it is. It doesn't matter whether you admit or not.

You made your daddy to this. Now you are talking about going to gods? Devil !

Shut up! Devil is far better than anyone else. He speaks for worst and filth sincerely. He is not supposed to play double standard like your coward priests.

Mom and daddy were tremendously selfish in the question about Jovan. Then why him to be special? Him to be lenient? They brought him for their pleasure, nothing else. Logic is very articulate and crystal clear, what he has done is retaliation. That is all he was thinking.

All these you are saying no one but to yourself. Because you are confused of all. You have no backbone to stand what you have done.

Pivoting death, all other negativities were in a harmonic circular motion within Jovan's head. What should be his next reply ? He saw his daddy lying in bed, but in a strange posture. How often he has seen him in that way. Once, twice, thrice ... no, no more. Mom is sleeping too. In cemetery, under soil but Jovan is not sure whether mom's sleep is permanent or not. Because he didn't ensure her departure from this hell-bound as he wasn't a doctor to confirm it. All he did is, he injected something in her and it worked efficiently. It was good enough not to make late. He buried. That's all. May she be alive over there still now but that doesn't matter.

How brutal you are to do this with your mom. You are vicious. Sick !

Oh again and again that stupid voice is ranting intermittently. Just stop! Stop it! Crazy! Listen I am not a craven to be afraid of intimidation of such a rat like you. Just get off. Let me do my work . I want daddy to be in the same place with mom as soon as possible.

The full box of cigarette is finished but Jovan hasn't smoked yet. Ash tray was replete by ashes.

You have lost everything. You have nothing. The way you are finding peace will throw you in such a hollow. Not to get out anymore.

It is my life, whatever I am doing with my parents. Take care of your business !

They were mine too. Don't forget you and me are two different existences of the same person. Why have you done all these to my parents ?

Because you know , it is sweet to see them suffer !

Just taste it !!!! Sweet to look at their creeping death ... !!