Deep in the unknown part of myself..

The separation of The beginning From The ending..

I feel lost, falling into the darkness of my own self. I can see my shadow growing bigger, I can hear the murmurs from Her, I can feel her warmth surrounding me,.. I wake up from another sleep that felt like eternity, a sleep that seemed to be my last one at first.. The view is magnificient, a giant plain of flowers surrounds me, the night sky illuminates me with a moon as shiny as the sun. I can see a cherry blossom tree standing in the distance, a lake lying right next to it.. Is this actually where my life ends? Is this what people would call Heaven?

While walking towards it, I can feel my heart beating faster and faster, I start to remember my own shadows, but.. I keep on walking, this is my safe place, at least this is what it feels like. It takes several minutes before me reaching the tree, everything just looks so beautiful.. The cherry blossoms, blown by the wind, slowly flies through the same wind to either land onto the ground or onto the lake's surface. The scenery of this had given me a strange feeling, I.. I don't know what it is, and yet I had known this.. Why do I feel so lost? What did the voices do to me, what have the shadows done to me. I sit at the tree, slowly taking my time to appreciate the relaxing scenery but surely. I hear footsteps, my mind is in complete meditation and my body is in need of rest, I don't feel the need to check who is coming to me.. I can feel a familiar presence sitting next to me.

-Her:"You've got yourself into trouble again, didn't you? Ah.. You really should be careful, you know how much I care about you."

I don't find any words to answer, I'm completely lost in my memories, nothing seems to come to my mind, only that I got into this place..

-Her:"Mhm.. You know that I've went through the same steps than you, we're quite similar don't you think? Both of us have been fighting through life, and now we met to discover that we have so many similarities.. Don't give up now please, you've promised me."

As her last words were said, I can feel her arms surrounding me, my soul and my heart. Everything seems to get so much clearer in my mind, her warmth and personality was enough to cure me of my amnesia.

-Me:"I will never give up on any promises I made to you. I will never confront my problems alone again, because I know I have a precious partner in my life now.. And you should remember the same.

-Her:"I know, that's why I'm here. You have nearly lost yourself to your own shadows, silly. And obviously, it makes me worry about you.. Your problems are part of mines aswell now, I will always come to help whenever you'll need me."

-Me:"That's right.. You just know how stubborn I can be, I usually like to think before acting, but this time, I had no other weapons to fight back."

-Her:"You do now.. Deep inside of there, you have something you can use to light up the dark path which you were lurking in once, you have the key to open the door at the end of the dark alley you've been wondering in. You have me."

-Me:"..Thank you, thank you for lending me your strenght and love, I will gladly take good care of it, you can trust me about this."

-Her:"No need to thank me or tell me to trust you, from where I stand at the moment, I can hear your heart answering for you.. But it will be time to go back, the past has to be left behind, and for that you're gonna have to fight. Take your time here until your decision is properly made, okay? I enjoy your company in this beautiful place, but I want you back in the normal world.."

-Me:".. Alright, It's a promise. I'm going to go back to where I was and I'll have enough courage to face whatever is waiting for me on the other side."

This moment just feels so close to a dream. We're just next to each other, watching the moon's reflection printing itself onto the top of the lake, with the cherry blossoms swimming in it. I wouldn't come back to fight, but.. I remember the promise that I made to her, I cannot just abandon now. It would be meaningless to have gone through so much only to give up now and.. My promises ot her aren't just dust in the wind, they're things that I will make sure to keep. The wind calmly caress us, while we rest under the tree and forget about what is surrounding us. I can feel everything changing back to where it was before I land in this place, my mind is probably ready to start.. My heart is still shaking but it no longer fears what's ahead of me, because it is not alone.. I can feel her heart beating in unison with mine, I will be able to do it with her.. I slowly fall into a deep sleep again.. This will not be the end. This is only The beginning,.. and I will fight through until The ending!