Loving Mr. Perfect of All Imperfections (SHINee Onew)

Chapter 5: Eun Jae's Innocence

"Aniyo. I'll just drink a glass of water."

"Arasseo. I'll prepare it for you." He smiles at me before he walks away.

I releases a deep sigh when I get inside. "Omo... Why am I feeling so nervous?"

I quickly change my clothes. "Jagiya? Where can I put this?" I ask him as I get out from the room. I show him my wet clothes.

"Give me that. I'll be the one to hang it."

I nod as I awkwardly give him my stuffs. I feel like my throat is drying so I quickly drink the glass of water that he prepared. I get startle when I feel him poking my back.

"Gwenchana?" He asks with a worried face.

"Ah... Ne. Ne." I bite my lower lips when I stammer.

"Are you feeling cold?"

"A—Ani."

I heard him chuckling. "I guess I know why."

"Wae?"

He looks closely to me. "You are afraid of me as of the moment."

I look away and shake my head. "Aniyo!" I know my cheeks are turning to crimson already.

"If not, then let's sit." He gestures to me the couches.

I follow him. I wanted to scold myself for feeling nervous. I get startle when I feel his hands on my shoulders, massaging me.

"Relax will you? I won't bite you."

I try to look at him from my back. "I know. I am... I am just worried."

He sits beside me. "Worried for?"

"I don't know."

He cups my face. "You are worried that we will do that thing?"

I look away. I press my lips firmly together before I nod.

He chuckles after seeing my answer. "I won't be forcing you if you don't want to jagiya. I told you many times that we will not do that if you are not ready yet okay? And that I can wait."

I sigh. I feel guilty to him coz' whenever we kiss intimately, I stop him. I always tell him that I am not ready yet. "Jagiya..." I look at him with teary eyes.

"Gwencha—"

I took a deep breath. His words are cut when I kiss him. He did not respond at me for a few seconds. In the end, he returns my kisses. He pulls me closer to him and then carries me gently towards his room. He cuts our kiss when we are inside.

"Are you sure that you are ready to do this with me? I am not putting pressure on you." He whispers it.

I nod. I think there's no reason for me not to give in when in fact we will be getting married soon.

He kisses me again as he places me gently on the bed.

"Jagiya... You can still back out." He asks me as he removes my undergarments.

I pull his head towards my lips. "Just take me slowly... It's my first time." I whisper it to his ears.

His eyes widen as he looks at me. "First?"

I shyly nod at him.

He smiles so genuinely to me. "I promise, I'll be gentle." I can see happiness in his eyes.

I nod. True to his words, when he gets inside me, he gently does it. He almost stops when he sees me in pain, but I nudge him to continue. He gives me few minutes first to adjust before he contines.