Breaking Us In Two (SPG)

Chapter One: Faith and Destiny

                      

                This is the story of a girl who fought in the troubled water in the abyss of the river. The girl who inspired me to make decisions on my own, to stand for what I want, who taught me how to be strong.   Who taught me about the meaning of true love. The girl that I’ve hurt so much but taught me the meaning of forgiveness. The girl that I’ve met beside the Merrimack River…

                Every Sunday a lot of people are too busy, some of them chooses to shop. Some of them want to see a movie. The others want to drink until they drop. Others want to go everywhere but for me? I dedicate this day for the one who I want to serve. That’s our God almighty. While the priest having his sermons I ‘am thinking how to become like him. That’s my dream since I was five years old. I think I have his calling but in my case? It wouldn’t be easy I need to make atough decision. Since I’m the only child the expectations of my parents are way beyond me. I need to tell them as early as now. Because I’m not getting any younger I’m already 25 years old. My family always wants to ensure that we always help the church. After we went to the mass and got home…

Dad… I need to tell you something… about what I want to spend my life here… I felt that I have God’s calling, I want to serve him in my own little way maybe by dedicating my time for him, giving myself to him… I want to be a priest.

That’s not possible Travis you’re our only child, we expect you to manage our business I expect you to continue our legacy. I and your mother want to see our grand children’s. We want to hear their noises while they are playing in the yard.

Maybe God has a bigger plan for me than to have a family.

What a second… are you gay? Is this your excuse for us to not expect for you to have a family? Just tell me honestly because if it is there would be a lot of complications between you and me.

No I’m not… it’s not what you think of.

So if not, stop this conversation. You as are only heir will do whatever we want. We expect a lot from you.

Expectations hurts dad…

It wouldn’t hurt because it will happen!

But dad!

No buts Travis! In our company we have a lot of charity program you can still serve God in that way.

                After that argument I didn’t say something I pause and runaway. I want to calm down for awhile. I want to think. I want to see a clear vision of what God’s want me to be. I want to know his plans, my purpose. I want to go to the place where there’s a little freedom even for awhile. I don’t know where to go. I ride on bus which I don’t know exactly where I go. The bus stop and I go down. There’s a lot of different trees. I smell the grass while the wind is blowing; it feels like that it embraces me to calm down to eradicate the agony inside of my heart. I look up and see the blue sky and the flocks of birds are flying. I walk and walk until I heard troubling water and try to look for it. It’s about three in the afternoon when I saw a crystal clear and beautiful river. I sat beside an old tree and close my eyes. It’s very relaxing. Then suddenly it scares me when I heard someone’s crying. It’s still early to have a white lady here or a forest creature who want to threaten me because I’m invading their territory. I pick somebranch of a tree for protection and tried to look for it. While I’m walking the voice getting louder it’s a sign that I’m getting nearer. Then I saw a lady sitting beside a tree, while she’s crying her hands are in her face. I think she want to hide it. So I get nearer to her and I want to touch her to ensure that she’s a human being then suddenly…