My Love On Paper

Woman's Health Conferance poem.

Just because I'm different on the outside doesn't mean I don't feel the same emotions on the inside

I have the same emotions
I feel the same emotions

I love and have been loved

I hate and have been hated

I fear and have been feared

What is it you feel is so imperfect about me?

So what if I'm not as cool in school

Or my parents are nowhere near as wealthy as yours

You know it hurts me when you speak of them in a poor manner

You know I have all my classes down but not so much in gym.

I know you aren't good with academics but is perfect in P. E.

Your jealous of me in this way and hurt me for your satisfaction

I see it now. I was blind in the mist before.
I once agreed to your rude comments on my life.

And tried to build a boat strong enough to ride your sea of emotions.

I must have been born without envy 

For I know no such wild storms.

I have never been able to sink someone's battle ship

Only do my best to help repair their shredded sails. 

And when I may I pay for their expedition.

Maybe that's why you enjoy my suffering.

Your anger and envy consume you like like a raging wild fire

Burning your bone dry forest and leaving behind ashes of desires and wishes.

I don't think I'll ever know the spark that caused this chaos.

Is it the fact I'm a girl?

Or I'm overweight?

Could it be my pain gives you pleasure?

It could be so many things.

I've been beat down to the sound of your laughter.

I no longer care what you have to say.

I was drowning in self doubt.

And you were in a drought of friendship.

We have had the highest mountains and the deepest rivers.

Beneath the surface we are similar.

Broken pasts and uncertain futures.

You need a fresh start.

And I need to stand up for my self.

I won't turn around hurt others like you did to me.

I never have been able to and I never will be.

You've been poisoned by some else's hurt and have become the snake.

Lucky for you I no longer fear them.

When I look into the eyes of a rejected snake,

I see a scared child in need of a second chance.

You have showed me your scars and open wounds.

And so for your sake.

I will take all the wounded under my wing so they may take flight tomorrow.

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