No Limits (Emo)

Chapter 1

I honestly don't know what I'm doing with my life...I'm kind of just going with whatever happens. Though, that isn't going to well so far. My grades aren't as good as they used to be. I mean im not technically failing but I used to do so well and I'm behind so I'm borderline passing? It doesn't matter. I just want out of high school.  I'm a junior so I'm almost done. Nothing really matters. I mean.. I sure as hell don't. My parents aren't too fond of how I've become. They loved me so much when I was younger. Now they just give me money and tell me to fuck off. They don't care about my grades, they just want me to turn 18 and leave asap. I'm 16 so they have a few years to wait and they're not too happy about that. When I was younger... we were one big happy family. Well.. minus the big. It's just my parents and I. I'm an only child and it honestly sucks. My father is always at work or with other women and my mother only cares about work. She's a journalist so she has plenty do do even when she's home. My house is normally quiet. All you can hear is yourself breathing and often the sounds of mom's keyboard clicking away. I hate it. Well this wasn't too good of a introduction thingy. A name would be nice. I'm Jordan. Jordan Derikson.  I'm currently going to be transferring from private school to public due to my recent grade drop. I'm pretty nervous about it.

I've only ever attended public school once. I had no friends cause I was really smart. And since my family has money, they always made jokes like "What are you gonna have daddy sue me or something." I was bullied badly and everyone thought it was okay. My parents didn't care. Despite having money I dress pretty normal for a teen boy. Well depending on what type of teen boy you would say. People call me emo but I like to dress how I want and express myself freely. Which one thing about public school I'm excited about is I don't have to wear that damn school uniform ever again. Hahaha.

It's Friday so I won't have to go to my new school until Monday. I have the whole weekend to prepare myself. I'm going to add blue to my hair and give myself snake bites. (Lip piercing on each side of the bottom lip.) I already have stretched  ears because my hair normally covers my ears so my other principal didn't really notice. Plus they had a problem with me wearing eyeliner to school. I mean if girls get to then why shouldn't I get to.. I always hated the school uniform with dress shoes.

As mentioned before I'm nervous about going to a new school. I was known as a nerdy kid and now I'm pretty much the complete opposite haha. I still wear glasses but glasses don't mean you're a nerd. It just mean you have bad eyesight. I don't even understand why they made glasses a nerd thing.

((Into thingy over for now I think.. idk I'll probably ramble on about random shit so sorry about that. Lol.))

I get into my car and twist the keys. Bloodhound Gang's The Bad Touch is playing and I'm singing along as loud as possible. Yes I know,  I'm pretty lame but it's fun. YOU AND ME BABY AIN'T NOTHING BUT MAMMALS SO LET'S DO LIKE THEY DO ON THE DISCOVERY CHANNEL. I'm having so much fun... I like being alone and just driving. I don't have to worry about home or school or parents.. I can just be myself. I pull up to the mall and park decently close to the front doors. This is pretty cool, normally it's hard to find a good parking spot.

On my way to Hot Topic, I uhh... stop into Victoria's Secret and uhh.. 0///0 peep at them bra and panty sets. Because why not... 😳😳 SHIT one of the private school jocks see me. I just pick up the biggest bra I see and take it to the counter.

"What are you doing here lmao"

I panic. "BUYING THIS FOR MY SEXY ASS GIRLDFRIEND WITH BIG TITS SEE" I hold up the bra..
I'm screwed. I'm screwed. I'm screwed. I'm screwed. I'm screwed. I'm screwed. I'm screwed.

"HOT! Hey uhh step over here. Her tits sound interesting.. show me nudes of the bitch."

Luckily I have porn saved on my gallery (don't ask okay I'm a 16 year old dude. I'm gonna have porn on my phone lmao.)

I pull up a picture of one of my favorite porn stars on my iPhone. "Uhh.. here's my baby girl. Don't tell anyone I showed you.."

He smacks my shoulder and laughs while oogling her. "SCORE. Lucky you. I'm dating the cheer captain and she's nothing compared to that."

Great he bought it... I hate myself but I don't wanna explain that I'm here to imagine shit while looking bras and panties.

Well.. my day sucks. I literally just bought a random bra for no reason. And I'm too embarrassed to go back into VS to get a refund. I guess I have a bra now lmao.

While proudly flashing my VS bag I walk into Hot Topic. I smirk at anyone who looks like they may be judging me in an attempt to hide my embarrassment.

I have a bra. Minus well get pink bondage ropes to take silly pics for my online friends and also for my kinky ass tumblr page. Spencers should have some. I bought random hair dye and lip rings from Hot Topic so I'm on my way to Spencers.

So I'm standing there with my VS bag and I'm looking at dildos and kinky shit. The jocks come in (probably to get face paint for a football game or something idk) and I RUN. I can't handle having to continue my story after what happened in VS... I DON'T EVEN HAVE A GIRLDFRIEND LIKE I'VE NEVER HAD A GIRLDFRIEND CAUSE PEOPLE PRETEND TO LIKE ME CAUSE I'M A SEXXI EMO BOIII um jk but I got a little into it. I think I'm ugly but people online think otherwise. I don't want an online relationship though. I already know I'd get too clingy and want to see them. So I don't date anyone. Never have and probably never will cause nobody likes me in person cause I'm awkward and stuff.. I didn't get the bondage stuff from Spencers cause I ran but I put my Hot Topic and Victoria's Secret bags into my backseat and drive home.

At Home
I turn on my PS4 and lay in my bed watching youtube and staring at the VS bag sitting on my desk chair. After blushing for a few seconds,  I make a choice few people have the balls to make. I'M GOING TO CROSSDRESS FOR EVER. Um no I'm kidding. Cross dressing isn't my thing but I know people who do it well. I just know it's not for me. I'm just going to try the bra on and take silly pics. :^)

This is a bit awkward to say but... I kinda enjoyed wearing the bra. I felt restricted yet powerful and I don't even have tits. Maybe I should start taking Resperadol (idk how to spell it. Kms.) And hopefully I'll grow some. I joke too much. People probably get offended.

((A/N I hope you guys like my writing style thingy. Like idk the flow of how things go I guess. The story is just beginning but so far I hope you feel a bit connected to Jordan. Idk how to word it. I'm awkward. I'm...uhh female so this is just about the best male perception I've had so far. It's not that good but my past works were worse than this. I deleted them though. I enjoy working on this and I'm pretty excited for some story development. I don't have much planned out though. I'm pretty much going with whatever seems legit I guess. I make a few corny offensivish joke thingys on here so like um sorry? I occasionally have a twisted sense of humor but I time it down as much as possible for the sake of not getting banned on wattpad or something. But it also has to have personality and I don't want it to be exactly like other emo cringe stories on here. Don't get offended when i say emo cringe. I'm pretty cringy myself. If you don't believe me check my instagram. My username is currently @moodyscooby it might change but if I chanel my username I'll try to remember to change the username listed in this long ass A/N. I'm almost back to 2000 followers so pls follow me ;-;)