When will I be free?

The beginning

Are you a ride or die chick? How far are you willing to go? What are you willing to do? These and many more were questions I wish someone had asked me before I began this journey. I wish someone had taken me aside and explained things to me. But if that had happened I wouldn't be here to tell you this story, and perhaps keep you from some of the same heartbreak I have suffered. I want to tell you this was all bad, but that would be a lie. It's not all bad, there have been some amazing moments, but all in all, I don't think I would wish this on my worst enemy. And for me that says a lot. I can tell you now, if given the option to do this over again, I don't think I would, I don't think there was enough good in this to overcome the bad. Who knows, I learned a lot, more than I would have ever thought possible, and maybe that's what my journey was meant to be about. But let's start at the very beginning shall we?

My journey begins in the year 2009. There's a lot of history that lead me to this point in my life, but it's not something I want to talk about right now, perhaps I will add it in at the end of this book, but that's a maybe. I know there are so many women like myself who have been down this road, heck I watched some of them myself and I can't believe many of us are still alive to tell the tale of what we have been through. This is simply my journey, and their journey could be wildly different than mine, or identical. The only thing is, I am no longer keeping mine secret. It is shameful, but it needs to be told. It's not glorious, it's not adventurous, it's not profitable. Those are all lies they tell you. And let me tell you this as well, you're not their only woman, oh no, they have many, and they play all of them the same way. Just be aware.

I guess I should introduce myself. Hi, I'm Theiri and I am a crazy person. No, not that kind of crazy, well maybe I am, at least I'm not medically documented that kind of crazy person. Anyhow, yep this is me Theiri and this is the story of how my life has changed by the choices and decisions I made. Now, most of them I am not proud of in the least, lets make that known right away, however, there's no going back and we can only move forward. I hope you can learn from this, in good ways and if you're the same as I was, make some better choices about your future!