[Ex-] Lover (ON-GOING)

Prologue

Prologue

Nakatitig ako sa repleksyon ko sa salamin. Gulong-gulo na ako sa mga nararamdaman ko. For Pete's Sake! I'm just 17! Napakabata ko pa para problemahin ang buhay pag-ibig! But here I am, unable to sleep.

Tinitigan kong mabuti ang aking sarili. Ang mahaba at kulot kong buhok na bumagay sa bilugan kong mukha. Ang aking maliit at may kataasang ilong. Mga singkit at itim na mga mata at labing manipis. My Mom got Japanese roots so maybe I got these features from them? I so hoped na sana natuto rin ako ng Nihonggo but yeah no luck, but, still I got the looks?

Anyways, seriously wala akong balak pumasok sa relationship. Sure, I got crushes and I did experience puppy love. Got a boyfriend once, but we broke up, and I didn't know why. We just did. Maybe because we were too young for it.

Sinusuklay ko ang mahaba at maalon kong buhok sa harap ng salamin. It's past midnight yet I can't still seem to fall asleep.

I'm bothered by the fact that even though I said I am 'too young' for love saka naman ako ginugulo ng tadhana. Why would you send handsome, cute and adorable guys around me?! Ugh, these boys are driving me nuts!

The flashbacks inside my head are keeping me wide awake! That's why here I am  staring at my reflection and combing my hair in the middle of the night. 

Well it all started few weeks ago...

Nakaharap ako sa isang tao na seryosong nakatitig sa mga mata ko. He stared at me intensely na feeling ko anytime I'll melt. I mean, have you experienced that? Like seriously.

He's just staring at me with adoration in his eyes. It amazes me how it didn't change all these years. Has he always looked at me that way? I can see my reflection on his brown eyes clearly and I loved that. No, I still love that.

He tried to speak but he immediately shut his mouth up. He closed his eyes and breathe deeply. I did too. Ewan ko rin bakit ko siya ginaya pero ang awkward kasi pag siya lang yung gumawa diba? And the atmosphere, sis, it feels like it's needed to be done!

I heard him chuckled. Huh? Nakakatawa na ba ang paghinga ng malalim? Bakit ako hindi natawa? Itatanong ko na sana sa kanya kung ano yung nakakatawa ron ng bigla siyang magsalita.

"Will you fight for me now?" his eyes were pleading but I remained silent. I don't know what to say. What exactly does he want to hear from me?

Due to my silence, he reached for my hand and awkwardly smiled. Why do I feel guilty? We were just supposed to eat our lunch but now I don't feel like eating at all.

"No. Even if you don't..." he paused.

And stared at our hands for a moment bago binalik ang tingin sa akin. I held my breath with his last words.

"I won't hold back anymore. Liligawan uli kita. "

And with that he left.

I thought we were done! Saka anong liligawan niya ako ulit?  Why? We're over. Three years have passed already so why?

Perhaps, he was waiting for me all this time? Is he inlove with me? Or does he want some closure and settle everything before we graduate our last senior year?