Fragile (Handle With Care)

Two

He looked at me and smiled too but his eyes shows sadness.

"So whazup?"

He just smiled.

"I have so many questions to ask you."

"Go ahead."

I guess he already know what I'm going to ask, that's why he gave me that smile, that broken smile.

"Is it true?"

Umupo ako sa isang swing na katabi niya.

"Is it true that you'll leave? You'll go somewhere..."

"Yes."

Nakatingin lang siya ng diretso sa baba.

"So you're going to leave me?"

"Yes."

My heart aches at that moment.

"... You will never come back, right?"

I wanted to be frank. Para nalalaman ko yung totoo. Even those truths slap me so damn hard.

"Yes."

Ugh.

Ken, Why?

I sighed.

"So..."

"Are you going to break the relationship?"

"Yes."

He just talks without any reactions.

"... The relationship we've shared that you made unforgettable."

I can feel nothing except for pain.

Now I can feel my cold tears falling on my cheeks.

"Ken, do you really love me?"

He didn't answer even a single word.

And that made me cry a million tears.

Is he confused?

Is it hard to say yes or no?

Is he?

Is he so stupid?

He stands on front of me.

He sighed.

"I need an answer."

"A true answer, coming from your heart."

"I- I don't know."
Ginulo niya yung buhok niya na parang problemadong problemadi siya.

"Are you stupid!? Is saying yes or no hard for you!?"

I stand on front of him.

He just looked at me sadly.

"Ano!? I need an answer Ken!!! Just answer me! You can say yes!"

Those tears of mine are falling on my cheeks down to my neck uncontrollably.

"Ken, do you still love me?"

I must be strong and brave at this moment.

Ugh.

But what's this feeling?
The feeling of pain, and bursting, and giving up?

"No."

He's still looking down.

But I'm looking at his eyes. I wanna hold him, stay with him, and don't give up him.

I know he lies.

"I'm so sorry Leigh."

I can't take it when he just turn his face and left, without comforting me and saying he... loves me...

Yeah. He doesn't love me anymore. I know he just said that, I know he doesn't feel that.

I don't want him to leave me.

I still wanna ask him one last question.

And it's Why?

Is he that stupid?

Is he going to crash everything we did!? He did!?

You made me feel like heaven. You made me feel like you love me. That's why I return that love cause I know you deserved it.

But what you just did?

You're so idiot! You're an asshole!

Wish I knew back then what I know now, that I should never met you. I wish I'd never saw you.

Wish that you just never love me that way if you'll just leave me hanging.