You're My Medicine, When You're Closed To Me. (2Doc)

dressing room

That's it.
I just hope that my interior thoughts are not real.
I am tempted to go back to my room to avoid listening to their pathetic conversation.
But a part of me needs to know what's happening between them.
God I'm hating myself so much. I spy by the door the scene. Murdoc is  sprawled on his bed, while she is in front of him.
-so what d'ya want? Why are you here?
-you let me come here...
-how could I let you out of my room? You begged me to be here. You told me"Hey daddy would you let your lil hirl in your room? My miniskirt is too short and I'm freezing!
-actually I just wanted to ask you an opinion about my riff for a song "as you know a lot about music".
-ah ah as you want dolly.
-ok give me your bass.
-take it.
She takes the bright red one in the corner of the room.
She immediatly stands up and yells at her
WHAT DO YOU THINK YOU ARE DOING LITTLE CHICK?
DONT TOUCH EL DIABLO. MY HANDS ARE THE ONLY ONES WHO CAN DARE TO TOUCH IT AND PINCH HIS STRINGS.
-keep calm grandpa.  Then I'm taking the grey one.
-that's better. Granpa pff, I could be your dad
-Okay daddy. Listen to this

She plays a riff that reminds me of some might say by Oasis. She sometimes looks at him in a seductive way.
What are you doing girl?
He tells her
-ehheheheh. Mhh not bad. Nothing special anyway.
-thanks pickle.
-Where did you steal it?
-HOW DARE YOU. ITS MINE.
By the way, changing topic, is the gossip about you true?
-be more specific.
-did you have sex with Paula cracker in the bathroom?
-SHIT. THIS STORY. AGAIN.IM SICK.
Answer to me.
-yeah okay. But I can't say I enyojed it. I was drunk as fuck. I can never say no to a glass of fresh whisky.
Or two
Three
Four...
Well I was drunk.
She told me "come on Murdic let's have fun tigether in the bathroom!".
Believe me. In those conditions I couldn't say no.
But I regret it.
2D wasn't okay with that.
And she wasn't even cute. He deserves a better girl.

Thanks Murdoc.

Rachel.
Oh yeah. She was gorgeous.
But idk. They split up. But wait why are you interested in my affairs?
-cos I saw her... outside...
-paula?!
-yeah!i read her latest tweets. It looks like she has come here to ruin your night. She's going to move in a few weeks. Be careful.

I hear some steps in the corridor so I suddely go back to my dressing room.
I thrown myself on the little couch.
They knock.
I try to act natural
... yeah? Come in!
The guy that discussed with mandy cimes in.
-hi sir, I have a present from a fan.
-a present?
-yes, a gift basket. To wish you good luck.
-thank you,put it on my desk.
-as he leaves the room I immediatly go to see what's that. But first I read the card.
"To My dear Friend 2D.
Well, I would like to tell you that I forgot everything but I haven't.
I just want to use this occasion to tell you that it was my fault.
I obliged Murdoc to become drunk to bang him in the bathroom and Gid! It was worth it. Those 5-10 minutes were amazing. But I wanted to specify that I stayed with you just for him. Come on! He's gorgeous! And he is still. I just wanted to spend a night with him. Or maybe two, three, four... but who doesn't?
Come on! I have understood that you are not straight! Maybe bisex. But if course you feel something for him!
Don't deny that. Well you can do it, but not to yourself. When you look at him, when you talk to each other... when you lower the look because you feel strange when he stares at you. And maybe he feels something too.
That's it. Good luck for the performance!
Xoxo
Paula."

The letter falls on the floor. I can't believe that. That bitch.
She wants to confuse me.
To create some strange thoughts in my mind.
To lead me to madness and to dominate my brain.
I try to avoid all of my thoughts to go back to overgear their conversation.
I know okay. Its not fair but my minds needs to scream. And now she can't do that.

I go back fo my job.
Now they're talking about being famous. She's sitten in front of him, and he's still on the bed. He looks into her black big eyes.
-so are you the leader?
-you're right babe. Gorillaz wouldn't exist without me.
-ehehheheh so you're surrounded by girls. How many if them would like to be under your sheets?
- well I haven't changed them in 3 weeks so not many.
-don't be ridicolous! You're the leader of the band! The king! There's a song called Murdoc is God! Am l wrong?
-in fact I am the king.
-so tell me, can This girl be yours?

What
WhAt
WHAT
WHAT THE HELL IS SHE TRYING TO DO?

I watch the cloack. Our performance is in 30 minutes or more.
But what is she doing?

-dolly you're really sexy, you could be the one for me maybe. How can I say no to a gothic girl with those black eyes? I seriously love those lense.

MURDOC SHIT.

Then show it to me. Show me that you are the one for me.
-you're running little violet.
-Of course I do. What do you wanna do pickle?

She stares at her. From head to toes.
She only had a tight dress.
Bloody leech.
He's satisfied. Like a kid who just won a toy he's gonna use twice to throw it away. To out it on his collection of used toys.
He slaps her butt.
-someone wants to have fun uh?-oh that's me.
So... let's start... no? We don't have much time before the performance.
He outs her hand around her waist. He eats her with his eyes. He tries to pull her zip down...
And she tells him..

"Murdoc! I just remembered that I must go to see if they found my flavoured water! Next time we will close our conversation. Bye!"

I run to my room while she's picking up her shoes. I don't want them to know I was there to overhear their conversation.
It was close.
She was about to desecrate him for the
But not her!

Wait did he say that he loves...
Bkack eyes? Wtf?

I had programmed the evening
Evrything had to be perfect.
I had to be calm and relaxed, and try to sing the song. Instead my ex girlfriend tries to ruin our night, murdoc was about to have sex with a girl and My god. I just want to cry. But I can't.
While I'm looking for my phone my wallet falls down
I'm shaking when I take it back and ai find...
The polaroid we took together.
I can still see Murdoc's conver's print on  my face.
It gave me strenght. I still have 30 minutes before our performance.
Breathe 2D. You are strong.
They knock. Again.
Excuse me?
Come in
Sir Pot,there is an error. You are the 4th to perform. Not the 7th. You must get on stage now.
They are waiting for you.

In that moment. I felt a heavy burden inside of me. Somebody maybe set up me. Everything was deleted.
Everything.
I just wanted to run away.
But I couldn't.
I walk like a transparent ghost who isn't able to think.
I'm trying to reactivate myself.
Shit.
2D wake up.
2D take the control back!
I'm scared of myself in that moment.
But a voice takes me back to earth.
The voice.
-Hey 2D, we gotta perform. Rock it. I believe in you.

Thanks Murdoc.

We go on stage where cameras on cameras film us. Sparkling orange lights shine on us.
They remember me of the sea

Even if there are thousands of people I feel alone in a black room

With Murdoc who is looking at me  from a long distance.
I think about the immensity of the orange sea. A voice tells me to estabilish an order in my head.

Ladies and gentlemen, here's the band that made you dream!
They will sing an old song but as you now  Old is Gold!
On melancholy hill!

By... GORILLAZ!