Piece by Piece

9. Whore

One month later...

Dear Momma, I am happy Toby and I have now been living peacefully with our step brother I love seeing Toby and Jamie together Jamie is like so much like a dad to Toby I know he is going to make an amazing dad one day there as not been much alone time with him and I yes we still sleep in the same room but most nights he gets home late we never talked about the kiss we shared I wanted to but since I have been spending so much time with Kyle I think he decided to back off Kyle is great he makes me smile and laugh i care a lot about him but when we are together like alone i don't really feel anything special don't get me wrong i absolutely love spending time with him i just don't feel anything romantic between us i haven't said anything because i don't know if i should i don't want him to not be around me I closed my journal and got ready for work yep I have a job i work with Jamie mostly as his assistant but sometimes I'm his model i have done two shoots since my first one and both times Lydia has done my hair and make-up her and i have gotten pretty close besides Kyle she is my only friend Valeria isn't around much but when i see her she sends me glares that could put me six foot under the ground the ride to Picture with Jamie is silent like it has been since i started working for him today was kyle's shoot i was nervous because I'm usually in the room when Jamie is taking the pictures of his models in case he needs a different camera or something but he hasn't had a shoot for a nude model since i started until today and of course Kyle is his model once i have the cameras set up Jamie walks in and comes to me "are you staying in the room" he asks not looking directly at me "i usually do to be an assistant to you"--it figures you would want to stay to see your boyfriend naked what a whore" he whispers the last part as he walks away but i heard him and i felt tears in my eyes and on my check instantly i was so shocked i ran out of there as fast as i could i bumped into something "Emily are you crying" i tried to answer Kyle but my i just cried harder "honey what happened tell me" I took a deep breath"J-Ja-Jamie he called me A w-wh-whore ca-cause i was gonna be in th-the room d-du-during your shoot" i said stuttering and sobbing at the same time "WHAT" he yelled but before i could reply he stormed off into the room i was just in not wanting to go back i went to find Lydia

Jamieson Pov

I saw Kyle storm into the room and once his eyes connected with mine I knew all hell was bout to break loose "are you fucking crazy out of all the damn names to call someone you decide to call Emily you step sister the girl you live with a whore simply because  she was gonna do the job you pay her for while I did mine what the fuck is wrong with you I'm your best friend and even though I don't know what is going on between her and I I care a lot about her so if for some reason you don't like her you should have told me or even kept it to yourself for the sake of our fucking friendship" what she heard me i didn't even mean it I was just so mad she chose him it fucking hurt after that kiss I thought we was gonna talk and see what happened between us she did kiss me back and there was so much emotion  but the next day she goes and agrees to go out with Kyle that's exactly what went through my mind when I asked her if she was staying or going how could I be her first kiss but Kyle be her first boyfriend "look man I'm sorry I know she's your girlfriend I never should have said that I know it not true"--"girlfriend isn't the word ill use"--"what the hell you mean by that are you just playing with her"--"no chill it ain't like that there's just no romance between us she's like my sister and I have a need to protect her "--"does she know this"--"no because I do realize she see's me as her first boyfriend and I don't want to hurt her plus I do like spending time with her like I said she is like family to me"--"okay we will talk later we have to do this shoot first I take the pictures to my developer and head to my office my dad well step dad was sitting in the chair in front of my desk I sit in my seat and send of my computer and see a picture of Emily we I took of her right before the second shoot she was in
Jamieson I came here to inform you of your mother charity is that for your clientele
email works
That's enough I raised you to have respect
which I lost for you when you disowned Emily and Toby
that worthless piece of shit is a none of your concern now your mother is to get a charity event Friday the day after tomorrow to help with their clientele you are expected to put together a slide show of your best model from the last 2 months and for entertainment your models will showcase a talent of theirs the event starts at 6 but your mother expects everything on your end to be done no later than noon and the next time I see you there needs to be better behavior from you I raised you better than my own to be grateful boy"--and with that he was gone after what he did to Emily and toby  he could no longer surprise me his words didn't affect me so I simply sent an email to four of my models including Emily after work I headed home Kyle told me he was dropping off Emily and him and I could talk then once i arrived toby was watching TV in the living room "hey bud is this what you did all day"--" no Emily  had me go to the second floor she met a lady that has a boy my age for me to hang out with"--"oh she found you babysitter" he just sent me a glare I laughed heading into the kitchen to see Kyle holding Emily into his chest Kyle looked at me "Emily maybe you should talk to him" she stepped away from him and saw me she instantly ran passed me to our room i sighed and went to go after her "wait you kissed her"--"huh"--"you heard me you kissed Emily" i looked down in shame "damn you Jamie you are the only guy to ever kiss her how could you call her a whore"--"i didn't mean to i was hurt she chose you over me "--"dude I'm your best friend yeah we don't talk about your feelings to each other but this is different you could've told me now we have to fix her she is so broken she saw her dad today and now she is comparing the two of you if you ever want a chance with her you have a long way to go

Emily pov

when I found Lydia and told her what happened she wanted to murder Jamieson for calling me such a thing she is a good friend she made me laugh when all I wanted to do was cry she doesn't know about my first kiss but I'm sure she knows I like Jamie we went to my little work area which is diagonal from Jamie's office I saw jack leave his office and everything my memories of him the pain he caused me everything hit me all at once it made me feel unworthy of love then Jamie came to my thoughts and how one sentence from his mouth felt three times worse than anything Jackhvas put me through and that comparison broke me entirely my hope for love was obliterated instead of talking about I distracted myself with the help of Lydia Kyle comes and checks on me after before he leaves and I ask him for a ride home "of course Emily come on" once we are in the car leaving the parking lot begins to talk "look Emily what's going on between you and Jamie you seem so torn up about the situation or did something else happen"--"honestly it's everything that has happened"--"what do you mean"--"it's a long story starting with my dad"--"I wanna know you and everything you've been through your trails your tribulations everything from a to z if your willing to share"--"okay but because I know you will help me move on" and I begin to tell him it all started with the letter from my mom I got from ms. maggie I even told about how I kissed Jamieson and only him by this time we arrived at Jamie's place and I finish telling him about how my dad didn't want me and toby living with him because I can't give him anything I never had a father figure and that made me fragile and after Jamieson's harsh words I can't even think of how I am going to come out of this by the end of the conversation I'm in tears now I'm in the room I share with Jamie on the computer checking emails one is fro Jamieson the subject reads models charity event in the email it says: myself and three other models have been chosen to have our pictures displayed at the annual Pictures Captured charity event also all the models are expected to perform any talent one may have whether it be singing, dancing or even tap jump roping this year the event is held June 27 which is this Friday at six location is 332 Oak Lane Rapid City SD 57702  this must be a mistake i just do fill in shoots if a model can't do it and I've only done three and a talent i don't have one well maybe poetry but I don't perform them i email Jamie telling him he has made a mistake because I'm not classified as a model nor do i wish to share my talent he reads his emails on his phone unlike me so I expect him to reply back within a matter of minutes and he does "no Emily I haven't made a mistake you have done three photo shoots and i have been your photographer for all of them which makes you exclusively my model in the company's eyes also your photos has gotten me a lot of positive feedback that is also another reason I chose you and as far as talent I do apologize but it is required I only work with people (outside of who the company assigns me) who can do other things besides pose in front  of a camera it is also a requirement you show up since you have been selected"  i sigh but don't reply there's no sense in trying to get out of it i get my things together for my shower Jamieson and i are in the same house yet we emailed each other to communicate i don't think he realizes how much he as hurt me he probably doesn't even care while I'm shampooing my hair i think if i should write a new poem or just recite one i already have written i get out the shower when the water starts to run cold i get dressed in my pajamas i was about to go see Toby but i hear him playing the game with Jamieson so I just watched them room the doorway instead deciding i was being creepy after awhile i went back to Jamie's room got in the bed with my journal i flipped through the poems i wrote when i was still in school i was reading one about worth when Jamie came in the room " Emily are you coming Friday"--"you said it was required"--"okay well you don't have to come in tomorrow i have a informed Lydia and she will have your outfit ready i have 2 shoots and a meeting tomorrow so it will be another late day so if you can email me your talent and if it involves music i will need you to send me how to access it i will be putting your picture together in a slide show show i will send you my final version"--"okay but there's no need to send the slide show" its really hard to have a conversation with him especially now since i know he thinks I'm a whore " look about earlier i need to apologize i as frustrated but i shouldn't have taken it out on you i know you are no such thing i really am sorry Emily"--"okay   goodnight Jamieson" i lay down and close my eyes but before i am sleep i think about Jamie I'm glad he apologized he seemed sincere but i hate that i wish there was more to what he had to say like he was mad Kyle and I were spending so much time together like he felt i chose Kyle that he likes me and wants to be with me but that is something that probably won't even happen in my dreams