The Gangleader

Chapter twenty-one

She just smiled, biting her lower lip, ugh god I hate when she does that.

I quickly pulled her towards me taking her in. I kissed her soft lips passionately.

God, I love this girl.

Maya's POV

"I don't feel good stop." I giggle pulling away.

"You should get that checked out.." Jackson trailed off, kissing my cheek.

"What you think I'm pregnant too?" I roll my eyes.

"Uhh, no.." Jackson chuckles hesitantly. He pulls me towards his chest throwing a blanket over me.

"Mhm," I mumble. "I'm tired.." I yawn, cuddling closer to Jackson.

"Ok princess." Jackson smiles before kissing me on the head.

"I love you," I whisper.

"I love you more baby girl," I say, playing with her hair.

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I woke up groaning in pain, my entire back was killing me, it has been for a few days. I looked over to see Jackson still asleep, like a little baby.

I held my back as I walked to the bathroom, I felt lighter lately for some odd reason, I walk to the scale to check my weight.

115

The fuck? How did I lose 12 pounds in just a few days?

I felt an uncomfortable feeling in my vaginal area, so I checked myself. 

Blood? Well, at least I'm not pregnant? But something was off.

I quickly ran out of the bathroom changing into a hoodie and Adidas sweatpants.

"Jackson!" I yell hitting him with a pillow. "Get up!!" I yell, shaking him.

"Mmmmm." He groaned, snuggling deeper into the covers.

"I have to go to the doctors! Please get up!" I yell, still trying to shake him.

He slowly got up in concern, "What? Are you ok?." He asks with his hair out of place, I chuckle a little bit before responding. "I'm fine, I think. Let's just go!" I beg.

"Ok. Ok." Jackson yawned.

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"So what's been bothering you, Miss. Maya?" The doctor asked holding up her clipboard, Jackson had been waiting outside of the room.

I grip onto the hospital bed before answering, "Um I don't know, I've puked a few times, my back aches, and I've felt sore... Umm I lost 12 pounds in the last 2 days and I had lots of blood this morning but I don't think I'm on my period." I explain, not to sure of myself.

The Doctor scrunched her eyebrows, "Hmm ok. Um, are you sexually active?" 

"Yes," I answer honestly, how could I not, have you seen my boyfriend, haha jk...

"Ok well, Miss. Maya, I'm going to run some tests for you and I'll be right back. I believe I have an idea of whats going on." She then dismisses herself out of the room.

--20 minutes later--

"Ok, so I'm back with results.." The doctor announced, 

"And?" I ask with concern.

"Well... It's hard for me to say considering the person, but this kind of things happen often." She explained.

"Did you start feeling sick first? The puking and what not?" She asks.

"Yes.." I answer, "And then the sorenesses, the loss of weight and then blood. Correct?" She continued.

"Correct," I answer, waiting for her to get to the point. 

"What you have been experiencing is a loss of a baby. Also known as a miscarriage." She explained, with a hint of pity in her voice.

My heart dropped, I don't think that's possible. How could this be? fuck.

"Ok?. But doesn't the baby still come out or something, like how does this all work?" I rambled, thoughts were going through my head once again. I put my head in my hands, so much has been happening within these past few years, and it's all so fast.

"Well, sometimes that isn't the case..Most women who experience an early miscarriage will not need to have any intervention or treatment, a miscarriage is a natural occurrence that the body instigates. When a pregnancy is not viable, the uterus begins to contract and usually empties itself completely." The doctor explained.

"Oh..." was all I managed to say.

"I'll let you and your boyfriend talk... You can sign out when you leave." The doctor then walked out, with Jackson walking in.

"So??" He asked with concern.

"I had a miscarriage," I mumbled, with tears falling down my face.

"Oh?" Was all he could say. "But um. I thought you didn't want a kid though?" Jackson said scratching the back of his head.

"That's not it though. Someday I do, what if I can't have kids in the future, I'm only 20 and this is already happening. What if I can't have kids at all, and you don't love me anymore." I ramble on with tears streaming down my face.

"Are you done?" Jackson asked crossing his arms, "Because I'll never stop loving you, no matter what. If you can't give me children oh well, I'll still have you. If you can then great, I'll love the kid and you. But no matter what happens I will love you regardless." Jackson reassured me, cupping my face and planting a small kiss upon my kips. I fell into his arms, embraced by his hugs.

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