Unexpected

Begging for Forgiveness

Luke's pov
What do I do now? I didn't mean for it to happen. I don't even know HOW it happened. All I know is that I almost did it with Lauren. We were so close then she pulled away. I think I just felt like I needed to do it with someone to keep me from pressuring her.

"Lauren. I-"

"How could you? With HER?" she asked. Then she ran.

"Lauren!" I yelled after her. But she didn't look back.

"Don't worry, Luke. We can still have OUR desert." Rachel said, rubbing my arm.

"No we can't." I pushed her outside. I slammed the door and ran upstairs. I realized Rachel left her clothes here. So, when I got to my room, I threw her her shirt and jeans out the window. I don't love Rachel. I don't even like her. I just wanted her body. Now I don't want anything more then Lauren. Even if we're just sitting on her couch. I just want her.

I got changed and called Gigi.

Hello?

"Hi Gigi. I really need your help."

With what?

"I screwed up. Literally."

What do you mean?

"I'll tell you in a minute. I'm coming over."

Okay.

I ran out the door and got in my car. Then, I drove over to Gigi's house. When I got there, I went up to the porch and knocked. Gigi opened the door.

"Hey, Luke!"

"I messed up. And I don't know how to fix it." I replied.

"Okay. Come in." She said. I walked inside. "Okay. What happened?"

"I almost had sex with Lauren."

"But that's good, right?" She asked.

"Usually, yes. But she stopped it."

"Yeah. That does sound like Lauren."

"Yeah. But I felt like I was pressuring her. So, I thought i had to do it with someone in order to not push her."

"Luke! What happened?!" She yelled.

"I slept with Rachel. But then Lauren came over and everything got put into perspective."

She shot up. "LUKE! ARE YOU STUPID? LAUREN HAS NEVER HAD A REAL BOYFRIEND. AMD WHAT DO YOU DO? YOU RUIN ANY CHANCE SHE HAS TO THINK THAT SHE MEANS SOMETHING!"

"Yeah I know. That's why I came. I want to fix this. Please help me. She means the world to me and I don't want her to feel upset. Please, Gigi." I begged.

"Fine. But I'm doing this for her. Not you." I'm glad I got her to agree.

We started talking. But, Lauren came over. She knocked and Gigi answered.

"Perfect timing. Come in." Gigi said.

"Okay. Thank you." Said Lauren. She came in and I stood up and turned towards her. She stopped walking and turned to leave.

"Lauren, wait!" I yelled. I ran past her. I grabbed her arm and spun her towards me so she was facing me. "I'm so sorry. I don't know why I slept with her. It meant nothing to me."

"If I know one thing. It's that sleeping with someone ALWAYS means something. Why would you cheat on me? After all the things you said. Everything we talked about. Why? Because I wasn't ready? Because you thought I would never be ready? Well I'm sorry that it's not enough for you to just know I love you. Im sorry everything has to be physical for you. And that a relationship that's not physical isn't enough. But that's who I am. And if that's not enough for you, then I'm not enough for you. But I'm not gonna change myself just because you think that all a relationship is is sex. Because I'm not ready. And if you're not ready to handle that, then I'm not ready to handle you. A selfish, conceited jerk." She said.

I had no idea how to respond. "Lauren. That's not all I think about. I don't know why I felt I had to do it. I guess I just thought I had to do it with someone in order not to pressure you."

"LUKE! YOU SHOULDNT HAVE TO DO IT! It should mean enough to you that I'm here. But if you can't accept that, then fine. Just go off. Be with your new girlfriend." She said, walking off. I followed her out. I can't just leave us like this. For the first time, I'm in love with someone for their heart, not their looks.

I finally caught up to her and she was crying. I grabbed her arm and turned her towards me. I had nothing I could say to change her mind. And I knew that. I pulled her in, and I kissed her. I felt relieved when she began to kiss me back. We stood there kissing for like a minute. But then she pulled away.

"Wow. You almost had me again." She said, running away this time. There's nothing I can do. I tried everything. I really messed up. There's nothing I can say or do. I fought as hard as I could. I've never had something like this happen before. But, it did. And I need to fix it. Lauren is the only girl I see a future with. The only girl I FEEL a future with. But I'm never gonna get a chance to prove that to her. Or will I?