Every morning I get up out of bed
Pee, wash my hands and look up at my reflection
A strange tired looking woman stares back
Her eyes empty and shaded
Her skin grey and flawed
The bright light emphasizing her every imperfection
I smile and try to convince myself that I am fine
But the magic of the words gets less and less
You need to fully believe it for it to work
I never have been much of a believer
Instead of relief the words
Now seem to elicit more of my distress
Leaning forward, I put on some make-up
Trying to make my face less of a sight
No matter how hard I try
Something is missing.
Some part of me seems gone
Somehow I never can get it quite right
There, in front of the mirror
I make sure to put a smile upon my face
And try hard to look sane. Happy. Normal.
But the image I try so carefully to maintain
Drains me from my energy
And pushes me back to an even darker place
Sometimes during the day the mask falls
Revealing my real face to the light
People looked shocked and grab my hand
Ask me what is wrong
And without an answer
They won’t let me out of their sight
At the end of the day when the night falls
I stare again at the woman that looks back at me
Will the mirror ever reflect my old self again?
Instead of this strange zombie woman with glassy eyes?
And if so, please tell me, whenever will that be?
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Black Poems
PoetryOkay, I am in a major depression and writing about it makes me feel better. So these are very personal and not very funny. Just so you know...