Let It Out...

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You want solution. I tell you what's wrong and why I feel the way I do, but then you tell me I'm wrong. You make me question my emotions. Make me feel like I'm horrible for feeling sad, or anything other than perfectly happy.

Giving me presents doesn't show love, being affectionate or actually listening to me will.

You make me feel bad every time you do something for me or even when I do something for me. Make me feel like a horrible person when something good happens to me.

It's like you don't know how to say sorry. In your mind you are always right even when you are obviously wrong. All I want is to hear you say sorry when you do something wrong, not reading it over text or email.

Do you know what "someone else's business" means? You can't just tell everyone-- All the people who work for you, or your friends, even your enemies about my problems. You can't tell them the secret I mulled over for weeks thinking if I should tell anyone. I don't want everyone to know about my problems, the ones I told you in confidentiality.

You say you don't want me to just have the same opinion as you because of who you are, but if I say anything that you don't agree with you yell at me saying that I'm as bad as Trump or whomever.

If I show any emotion, if I cry you make me feel stupid and bad for it. Then you yell at me when I don't tell you what's going on in my life or how I'm feeling.

I might be young but I still get sad and mad. My anxiety or depression doesn't just go away because you said "You're too young to feel that way" or saying "just stop crying/having a panic attack" my problems are as real as yours. I have a panic attack and I get yelled at and ridiculed. You have one and the world is ending, we all have to take care of you and listen to you and stop whatever we're doing for you.

My stuff is important, may not be to you but it matters to me. I can't just drop everything for you. And then you get mad when I said "I can't, I'm busy". The same way you're life doesn't revolve around me, my life doesn't revolve around you.

I tell you my problems, how I feel and you just try to tell me what to do and change me. You never stop to think that you might need to change something, or do things a little differently

You're good when I'm "happy", but once I'm sad or anything's wrong... you're not.

I love you and I would die from the sadness if something happened to you... but sometimes I just really hate you.

And I feel really bad for feeling that way...