Fall For Me

Step 26: Revelations

Kharu's Corner:

My lovely readers, Sorry kung matagal akong hindi nakapag-update ha? Super busy haha. Weekly may exams eh, kumusta naman yun.

As promised, ia-upload ko na po ngayon hanggang EPILOGUE. At please, sana mabasa niyo po yung KN (Kharu's Note) ko dun. Dun ako magd-drama este, May important announcement lang. Salamat po! Godbless!!

trigger warning: self-harm
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Step 26: Revelations

Ang bigat-bigat sa dibdib. Hindi naman kasi ako malakas. Hindi ako sanay sa ganitong pressure.


"Sephie.. Please, hayaan mo naman na malaman ko kung anong nangyari sayo.. G-Gusto ko nang maliwanagan.." I cried as if she could really hear me.


Or maybe she really could.


May kung anong nalaglag galing sa bookshelf. And this time, it's not a diary.


Malaking envelope. Paano kaya 'to nalaglag? Maybe Sephie's really with me.


Ramdam ko na maraming laman yung envelope. My hand shivers. Alam kong nasa loob nito ang sagot.


Pag-bukas ko, may tatlong envelope na nasa loob, isang box at mga naka-fold na stationary papers.


Inuna ko yung stationaries..

I knew it. These are torn pages from her diary. Ito siguro yung mga kasunod na nangyari.


Masyado sigurong masasama kaya hiniwalay niya. These might be the answers' hiding place.

Halata mong galit si Sephie nung sinusulat niya yung mga 'to.

Sobrang diin nung sulat, to the point na nabutas na yung papel, the papers are crumpled and torn.


I continued reading.

"February 11, 2011

Yesterday, we went to James' place. We talked, I cried, he brought food and beer, I didn't refuse. Uminom ako hanggang malasing ako, I'd love to forget the pain.
And so we ate, we drank (wildly), we danced and partied. (Kahit na kami lang dalawa.)

I thought that was the best hang out ever.


But it was a disaster.

Nung nagising ako, I'm totally naked, and James wasn't around. My head hurt like hell. Hanggang ngayon, hindi ko pa rin alam kung ano talagang nang-yari.

Ang laki ko naman kasing T*NGA!! Ano ba kasing iniisip ko? Bakit ako pumayag? Kahit alam kong mahal ako ni James at bestfriend ko siya, still, he's a guy! A very liberated guy!! Ang t*nga-t*nga ko talaga!! Ano na lang ang sasabihin ng mga tao sa school? Ng family ko? Ni Kai?

James' note scared me. It says: "Thanks for the wonderful night, Sephie. I'll be back soon.",

But what scared me the most was the bloodstain on his bed.

I want to die!!!!"

Natulala ako sa nabasa ko.

Napatunayan ko na talaga kung gaano ka-obsessed si James kay Sephie. He's a pervert!!


Nasusuka ako.. Nakaka-sukang isipin na pareho niya kaming binaboy ng kakambal ko.

Though my chest is in severe pain, I continued reading.

"February 12, 2011

Natatakot na ako kay James. Sa unit ni Trish muna ako natutulog ngayon. Ilang beses kasing pumupunta si James sa unit ko..

Nung una, pinapasok ko siya. Alam kong kailangan naming mag-usap. Confirmed..

May nangyari nga sa aming dalawa. I'm a big idiot. Ano nang mangyayari sa'min ni Kai? Hindi ko kayang mawala siya sa'kin.. As much as hindi ko kayang mahalin si James..

Sinabi ko yun kay James. He became hysterical.. And tried to do something with me again. Lumaban ako, tinutukan ko pa siya ng kutsilyo para umalis siya. Like, what the hell? Depressed ako, he still thinks about 'that'? Hindi ko akalaing ganun siya. He's not my bestfriend anymore.

Hindi alam ni Trish yung nangyari.. Kinahihiya ko yun. Kinahihiya ko ang sarili ko.

Ngayon, may sapat na dahilan na si Kai para layuan ako."


Few flips and I'll arrive at her death day.

Kinuha ko yung inhaler ko at huminga ng malalim. It helps, but not completely.


"February 13, 2011