This last few days I have been incredibly stressed. It feels, like my heart is being wrenched dry. A friend of mine, she means the world to me. When you've had abusive friends your whole life and then somone who actually cares comes around, they mean the world to you. But the last O heard of her, have been vague texts speaking about how she is still extremely sad. She told me she hurt herself. I can't stand it. The last few days she has not responded to anything I have sent her. I can't stop worrying. I don't know whats what's happening in her life and I can't even reach her. I message her, frequently, in the hope she will respond and tell me that she is happy again, but to no prevail. I can't stop worrying. I can't get her out of my head. And I just want to see her happy again. If at very least hear from her. Maybe she got fed up with my nonsense and decided she would ignore me. Perhaps she hurt herself seriously and she is unable to communicate. I cannot describe the stress of having someone you care about being so far away with the last texts being texts of misery and pain. It feels like someone has put a wrench to my heart, and is squeezing it. Every drop. I just want to see my friend again.
