But It's Better If You Do

I Won't Give Up On Us

"Kitten." Cronus called.

Holy fucking shit.

"Ampora." Kurloz growled.

"Vwhy the hell are you here?" Cronus grumbled.

"I could all up and ask you the same." Kurloz challenged.

Cronus stomped forward ready to grab Kurloz by the collar.

"BOTH OF YOU CHILL THE FUCK OUT!" I shouted shoving both of them back.

"Loz you need to leave." I whispered. I could feel my heart shattering into a million pieces. I had managed to convince myself that I'd moved on but I still loved Kurloz and if what he said was true then that means that sleeping with Cro could be the worst decision of my life. But then there was Cronus, sure sometimes he was a prick, but he helped my through the rough patches and made me feel confident and the idea of hurting him hurt me even more.

"Ok." Kurloz muttered not even trying to argue he leaned down and kissed me before heading over to the window making his way out.

My knees buckled and I dropped to the floor immediately bursting into tears. Was I gonna have to choose between the two? Should I play it safe and stick with Cronus or should I risk it and take Kurloz back? No matter who I picked I knew someone was gonna get hurt. Even though what Kurloz said seemed far fetched I could tell he wasn't lying; he couldn't lie to me. Then there was Cronus, we weren't official but we had a connection and he was my friend; what would happen if I suddenly told him I wanted Kurloz back? My swirling thought pounded against my skull like a stormy tide against the ocean rocks.

"A baby." Cronus called reaching out to me. I snatched away. I didn't need him to get any more attached, I didn't even know what I wanted myself. Without thinking I pulled myself up off the floor and went flying out of my room, down the stairs, and out of the house. I didn't know where I was going but I ran down the streets as fast as I could barefoot and in my pajamas. I ran until my lungs burned and my body begged me to stop. I didn't even know where I was, but I didn't care. I needed to be alone. I needed to think. Most importantly I needed to prepare myself for the worst.

I walked until I reached a large park out in the middle of virtually nowhere. I looked around the clearing and collapsed in a heap under a large oak tree. I pulled my knees to my chest and sat out in the cold. My body shivered and ached from the cold and exhaustion and I felt myself falling asleep in the cold under the oak tree.
________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________(Mikado's POV)

"WHAT THE HELL JUST HAPPENED?!" I screamed at Cronus who made his way down the stairs.  A just ran off like a mad woman and I was sure as hell gonna get answers.

"I- I dunno. Kurloz was here and I- she just flipped and ran off." Cronus sighed a hint of confusion and concern in his eyes.

I grit my teeth and reached into my hoodie pocket for my phone. I pressed the numbers on the keypad quickly and angrily.

"Where the fuck are you?" I hissed venom dripping from my tongue.

"Why do you care?"

"AUBERGINE IS FUCKING GONE AND I HAVE NO IDEA WHERE SHE WENT! I DON'T KNOW WHAT YOU SAID TO HER BUT I SWEAR TO EVERY DIETY IN EXISTENCE THAT IF WE DON'T FIND HER I WILL FUCKING MURDER YOUR ASS!" I yelled my chest heaving from lack of breath.

"I'll find her." And with that the call ended.

I turned sharply to Cronus. "Fucking same to you too Ampora. I don't know how you're involved, but I know you are. I will not hesitate to slit your fucking throat in your sleep." I growled. I grabbed my car keys and stomped toward the front door.

"I'm gonna go check by the school. Cronus, you go check by the beach. Gam, you stay here just in case she comes back." I ordered. Before I stepped out the door I decided to call A's phone. It went straight to voicemail; wherever she was her phone was either dead or didn't have a signal. I opened the door then slammed it shut behind me and made my way to my car. I put the key into the ignition and took a moment to compose myself before I went and did something rash.

Please be ok.
________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________(Kurloz's POV)

God damn I'm such a fuck up. This was my fault. If I hadn't said anything, if I hadn't gone to her place none of this would've happened. I was so fucking stupid thinking that a simple explanation would fix anything. What the motherfuck was I hoping for anyway? Did I think my words were gonna work voodoo magic and bring her back to me? That'd she'd even be willing to take me back after all the bullshit I put her through? But if I didn't say anything she'd never know. She would've resented me not even knowing that I was doing what I thought was best for her. I loved her. I love her. I'm a mess without her and trying to pretend that being without her doesn't hurt me is killing me. When Mikado told me she just up and disappeared I thought I was gonna lose it. I have to find her.

I had no idea where she had run off to and her phone was going straight to voicemail; I thought long and hard about all the places she might go to. A sudden revelation sent me speeding towards the park we used to go to when we were younger. It was a fifteen minute drive so if A actually ran all the way there I knew she'd be tired.

I went running through the clearing shouting her name; it was cold out and it was gonna start raining any second. I needed to find her before she got sick or worse.

"AUBERGINE." My voice cracked as I shouted her name.

I continued through the open field and searched tirelessly for her. I thought back to the times we used to come here and play around. She always hid in the oak tree. My head snapped up and I looked for the only oak tree in the park; I ran full speed to the tree and there A sat curled into a ball. Her eyes were closed tight and her lips were a faint blue. Her skin was cold to the touch. I slipped my hoodie off and wrapped in her in it carrying here back to the car.

"God damnit, A." I whispered relieved to have finally found. I pecked her forehead and held her body close to mine. I placed her in the car then texted Mikado letting her know that I had found A. I drove back to Aubergine's house; we managed to make it back in time before it started raining.

"Kurloz." A mumbled.

I held onto her tightly. "It's okay." I muttered.

"Oh thank God." Mikado yelled running up to the front of the house. She opened the door and I carried A inside.

"Go get some blankets she's as cold as ice." I stated sternly. Mikado ran off to get some blankets and I embraced A tightly.  I was scared that if I let her go she'd just up and disappear again.

"Thank the Messiahs you're okay." I mumbled stroking her face.

"You really do love her." Mikado stated in awe handing me the blankets; I wrapped A up and carried her to her room.

"I should go." I stated quietly. Mikado called out after me but I didn't stop or turn around. A was home and she was safe and that's all that mattered. She still had friends that loved and cared about her and now she had Cronus; she didn't need me and I didn't wanna cause her anymore pain than I had before.

If this is the right decision then why does it hurt so bad?