The One

Chp.1 The One with All the Music and Late Night Calls

  I was scrolling through Instagram listening to Chance the Rapper. I had a real shit day today. My best friend wasn't at school today today -damn hoe was sick with the flu *eye roll*- then I seen my ex boyfriend with his new girlfriend. UGH. I don't even know her and I don't like her. It's been a few months since Eli and I had broken up but still. But I don't care and I can't do anything about it; so my life sucks.

I walked to my bathroom and decided that Wednesday night would go to waste no matter how hard I tried. I opened the Play tube app on my phone and tapped my 'Shower' playlist and pushed shuffle and waited for a song to load while I stripped. I wrapped my towel around my body and walked over to my mirror and grabbed my makeup remover wipe.

A song finally started blasting through my Beats Pill that sat atop my mirror. It gives better acoustic to the sound. It was 'All Time Low' by Jon Bellion. A small smirk made it way up to my face as I enjoyed the strong beat. I began combing out my very tough, curly and sorta nappy hair. I moved my body to the beat, mumbling the words and imagining a dance routine in my head. After what seemed like 10 years of getting tiny, painful knots of my hair, I was able to climb into my shower. The next song on my playlist was 'Oui by Jeremih' I began swaying my hips; I closed my eyes and memories flashed through my mind. They came in pieces ; his eyes. His smile. Him speaking but I couldn't hear anything he was saying. I suddenly gasped and opened my eyes. My fingers were in tight fist but they were still pruned.

I quickly lathered myself in my Peach scented body wash and stepped out wrapping my fluffy grey towel around me. I walked up to my mirror and swiped the off some of the fog; just where you could see my eyes. I looked directly into my eyes and stared. I couldn't stand at my eyes anymore. Not the same way i did before

My big brown eyes. That he loved so much. He used to say he loved my eyes because they had all the colors in them.

*FLASHBACK*

"You know when your coloring or painting and you start to mix different colors together and shit and at some point or another, it ends up as a dark brown..??" he asked with a raised eyebrow. I nodded slowly trying to understand where he was going with this. "That is what your remind me of. All the colors of the world in your eyes. and I love them." He finishes with a kiss on my nose and I laugh at him..

*END OF FLASHBACK*

As the memory fades away, only then do i realize that I'm still standing in my en suite in only my towel. a tear slips down my cheek and i quickly wipe it away and open my door and grabbing my phone. I walk over to my dresser looking for my boy shorts to sleep in. After putting on my shorts, I walk over to my closet and pick one of my big T's. i pick my favorite one -okay.. one of them- it was my brothers but I stole it from him. it was long sleeve Nike shirt. With my brother 6'2" and me being 5'5", it was pretty darn big on me. it reached mid-thigh which i enjoyed i grabbed my fluffy socks from my desk and slipped them onto my feet. i grabbed my head wrap and quickly tied my hair in messy bun a top head, wrapped my head scarf around my hair.

i made my way to my bed, making my way to closet and en suite to close the doors. i went to my window and slightly opened it to let in a breeze. it was currently mid October -my favorite season- so the temperature was just right. i climbed under my deep navy blue comforter, cuddling to the wall, wrapping my comforter lightly around me and touching to the left of me to make sure that my giant teddy bear, Carter, was there. Carter was the only thing that 1. kept me falling out of my bed and 2. kept/ got me asleep. without him, i didn't get any shut eye. Insomnia was a bitch. I lied down a put my arm over my eyes and started mumbling incoherent things to myself. My phone vibrated, i lifted my head to see it was lit with a notification, from Ciara -my best friend- "Can I call you?" the text message read and before i could reply, it began to ring with her picture popping up

"Imagine if I had said no.." I answered and smiled even though she couldn't see me. "I would've repeatedly called you until your lazy ass answered, might've even called Mama and Pops -her nickname for my parents." I could hear the devious smirk on her face. "Only you Cici, only you" I smiled and laughed at how crazy my best friend. "So tell me about your day Emmy.. what went down while I gone?"

I began to explain to her what happened throughout the day and how classes were. After what seemed about two hours of explaining and more drama, I decided that i needed sleep. I wished Ciara sweet dreams and wellness and before she hung up, she told me that she be attending school the next day. I grinned happily at the news, realizing that I wouldn't have to face my day alone with the people I attend Watson Mills High with.

I'm not particularly fond of most. I hung up the phone and set alarm on and put 'DO NOT DISTURB'. I set my phone back onto the nightstand and cuddled up with Carter against my wall. I closed my eyes and prayed. Prayed for something better.

Anything to be completely honest.