all the times

the sixth time

play the song; fix you - Coldplay

I raced out of the bathroom desperately trying to find tyler.

why had he done this to himself. what hurt him so bad. 

I threw open a door that was closed and saw tyler sitting on the edge of an unmade bed in the middle of a small room.

he jumped up and tucked his feet under him. "Josh, you scared me".

"tyler.." I choked out. I was so heartbroken that I couldn't speak. I walked over to him and sat down. I gently lifted his arm and rolled his sleeve up.

old scars and fresh jagged cuts littered his arm. I looked into his eyes just as he begged me not to be mad at him. my mouth dropped and a sob wrenched itself out of my throat.

I grabbed his shoulders and hugged him, pressing him to my chest and kissing the top of his head.

"it's okay, I've got you".