But I'm Barely Breathing (A The Script FanFic) (Sequel to Millionaires)

Chapter 7- A Name

“Guy?” a voice suddenly asks from the darkness.

“What?” I moan.

“Nothing.” Luke says and I groan before rolling over. “Guy?” He asks again a few minutes later.

“What?” I growl through gritted teeth.

“Do you ever sleep?” Luke asks and I sigh.

“Not if you keep talking I don’t.” I say.

“No, but really, I haven’t seen you sleep in years.” He says.

“Good at least I know you aren’t stood over my bed all the time watching me like a stalker.” I say and I hear him sigh as he gives in. However my mind doesn’t, it keeps wiring over his question. The answer is; hardly ever, and when I do I am haunted by the scene, always the same, played over and over in my head; the time she fell. But then, when I wake, I am alone, broken and frozen. Every day I drag myself from my nightmares to find there’s no relief in waking, she’s always there, always falling, forever, and she will never ever stop.

*Kara’s POV*

“Daniel hasn’t had any visitors before.” The nurse says as I am lead through some white doors into an even whiter room.

“I’m the closest he has left to family but we lost touch for a while, I only just found him.” I explain.

“Ah I see, well I’m sure he will be glad of the company.” She says and I nod. I don’t quite know what to expect, when I finally found his name on the files for a mental institution I was sure it wasn’t the right person, but now, now I’m not quite sure.

“He doesn’t talk much, just mumbles to himself. Any sign of trouble just ring the bell.” She says and I smile.

“Thanks.” I say before she leaves the room and another door opens on the opposite side. My breath catches in my throat a little as the young man is lead in by a man wearing a white coat and sat down in a chair opposite me across a white table. Then the man leaves the room, closing the door behind him, leaving us alone.

“Dan?” I whisper, trying to get a good look at his face, hoping beyond hope that this is not him. “Dan?” Slowly, he lifts his head, his dark eyes slightly misted.

“Kara?” He whispers and my heart leaps. There is no doubt about it, it’s him.

“Dan, what happened?” I ask, leaning towards him over the table.

“She’s gone.” He whispers.

“Who?” I ask.

“Gone, gone, gone, gone, yet not gone.” He says, bring his knees up onto the chair and rocking slightly.

“What do you mean? Tell me what you mean.” I say softly. “How can someone be gone but not gone? Where are they?” I ask and suddenly he shoots forwards making me jump.

“In here.” He whispers, tapping his forehead. “She’s in here!” He hisses. “She is gone but she is still here!” He cries. “She whispers.” He says, his eyes darting all around. “She is always whispering!” He lowers his head, and begins to mumble to himself quickly. “Tell her Dan, gone on tell her, tell her what you did!” He whispers before his head flicks sideways and he screws his eyes shut. “No! No!” He cries before opening his eyes again. “Tell her!” He hisses.

“Dan, please tell me what happened.”

“Tell her! Go on, do it now! She needs to know!” He hisses before sobbing quietly. He reminds me of that creature in The Hobbit; Gollum, the way he talks to himself as if there were two separate people inside him. Suddenly he looks up at me, his expression blank.

“Autumn left like a swallow

And winter came along

And all the kings men did follow

Well, all of them but one.”

He says and I quickly get out my phone and note down his rhyme.

“Swallow found a new nest

Hidden from his rage

But the men would not rest

Until birdy was again in cage

Betrayal for betrayal

Lead the pack to her

So close to their holy grail

Minds began to blur

Murder of the brightest

followed by sweet revenge

His hands were not the cleanest

by that cold nights end

Brightness still stalked him

Shinning on his strife

Whispering all tales grim

And so he took the knife”

Once he is finished he slides from his chair in a ball, his arms over his head like a shield. “Why did I have to tell her?!” He sobs and I watch him pitifully before looking down at my notes.

‘Autumn’ I guess is referring to his sister, and if she ‘left like a swallow’ I guess all references to birds are her as well. So Autumn ran away, and ‘found a new nest’ So someone took her in. ‘All the kings men’ will be Dan’s gang, so they all helped try and find her ‘all of them but one’ so someone betrayed Dan. But then someone betrayed who ever betrayed Dan and they found them. ‘Murder of the brightest’ Someone was killed…Autumn maybe? ‘Followed by sweet revenge’ So whoever betrayed Dan was killed? ‘Brightness still stalked him’ So…someone followed him…Autumn? Or whoever was ‘murder of the brightest’? So Dan imagined their ghost following him? And that’s the person who is still whispering to him now. ‘And so he took the knife’ So he tried to kill himself? So he ended up here?

I look back up at him, trying to set everything straight in my head. He has lost it, anyone could see that, and I doubt there is any way to get him back, to get back the Dan who saved me, who made me who I am, who was my friend when nobody else was, but there is one thing I can do; revenge. Whoever is responsible for all this must pay. My job is to carry out revenge for other people; I think it’s time I got something I want out of it.

“Dan, who did this? When Autumn left, who did she go to?” I ask. Slowly, very slowly, Dan unravels his arms from around him and looks up at me with lost eyes. “Just give me a name, who did Autumn go to?” I ask.

“A name?” He says and I nod. “A name Daniel.” He hisses suddenly. “Give her a name!” He yells, cowering backwards before looking up at me with terrified eyes. “A name…Danny O’Donoghue.”

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So, hello.

Well, this is slightly late as i lost track of what day it is with it being the holidays! Hope everyone had a great xmas!

Right well, Eoin and Cat! That bit came to me a few nights ago and i must say i love it, if he showed up on my doorstep like that i would be the happiest person alive! The abandoned kittens was of course inspired by the kittens my dad found a few weeks back! (Meg is doing great and has discoved she has sharp claws and teeth that can be used to her advantage....) lol but it has thrown me deeper into confusion about who i ship more Canny or Coin! Lol

A little bit more about Guy and his dead girlfriend...what do u think happened to her?

Kara/Karma found Dan! I think its safe to say Dan has gone insane...it was really hard to write that bit so i hope its ok! But now Kara is going to go and try and get revenge on Danny! Dun Dun Dun!

Lol anyway i really hope u enjoyed this chapter thanks so much for reading! Please do vote and comment! Thanks! Your all amazing! :)

                                                           Jess :)

Don't forget the KETTLE! :)