But I'm Barely Breathing (A The Script FanFic) (Sequel to Millionaires)

Chapter 6- Trying

“Go and buy some then.” Sean says from where he sits watching TV on the sofa.

“Why me?” I moan, closing the fridge.

“Because you drink most of it!” Sean says back and I sigh, sticking my tongue out at him childishly as I grab my jacket and check the pockets to check I have some actually money. “Get us a paper while your there will you?” Sean calls and I sigh.

“Yes master.” I mumble before walking out of the door, pulling it loudly shut behind me.

I grit my teeth, trying to keep myself together as some advert for some stupid war game plays out on the TV in the corner of the shop. The sounds coming from it; the gunshot, the cries, the explosions; it’s all too familiar. Kids have fake warzones for games, they kill fake people in games, fake comrades die in games; I wish it really was all just a game, that it didn’t matter, that nobody was really hurt. I think it’s sick, so fucking sick that children are being taught to love war, to love guns and violence, they know nothing of it really, but they think it will still be a game, they don’t understand until it’s far too late, until they have killed, until they have seen friends killed, and by then it’s too late, they are broken and gone, no going back.

“€6.50 please.” The girl behind the counter says as she taps away at the screen of the till. I rummage around in my pockets for my money, the coins running around from my fingers. Suddenly a voice stops the chase and makes me look up. “Luke?!” The cashier girl exclaims. “It is you, wow, sorry I didn’t expect to see you they told me you were off at war somewhere, wow I…umm we have all missed you so much!” She gushes and I just stare at her, my mind whirling trying to place a name to her face.

“Oh, umm hi, umm…” I stumble before I see her name badge. “Louise!” I cry with slightly too much of a triumphant tone in my voice. “Louise, yes, hi.” I say and she blushes slightly.

“So, umm what are you doing here?” She asks.

“Oh I’m just stay with Danny, quit the army, so I’m just squatting there for a bit till I get a job.” I say, finally finding the change in my pocket and putting it on the counter.

“Oh I see, yeh same really-not that I was in the army or anything, I’m staying at my brothers while I finish my degree.” She says and I nod, pretending to listen.

“Lovely, well, better be going.” I say picking up the milk and newspaper, “Bye.” I say with a small smile before turning to leave, wanting to avoid being anymore sociable.

“Oh, umm nice seeing you! See you around sometime, umm bye!” She calls as I close the door behind me. I’m not in the mood for socialising, I don’t have to be; there is nobody to prove to; to show I’m fine; to show I’m happy; to show I’m still me too; right now I don’t need to pretend, I can just let the new me show, no matter how much I dislike him.

*Danny’s POV*

Mark watches us out of the corner of his eye from the other side of the room as Glen and I talk quietly over a cup of tea. We have both noticed it, his reluctance to go home, how he seems sort of…distracted and distant a lot, and it worries us.

“Whenever I try and confront him about it he just says he is tired. He told me he had gone home, he keeps telling me he has, but he hasn’t. Rina rang, asking about when we would be finished in Cardiff, said she couldn’t get hold of Mark.” Glen explains.

“So he hasn’t been home for 2 weeks? Where has he been staying?! He was only at mine of one night.” I say.

“Hotels probably. But the point is, why?” Glen says and I shrug, glancing back over at him.

“I don’t know, but something is up, he isn’t…right. He isn’t himself at the moment for some reason.” I say with a sigh.

“Yeh…” Glen says, “…but, what about you, Dan?” he says suddenly and I look up at him.

“What do you mean? I’m fine.” I say and Glen smiles sadly.

“No, your not, none of us are really, but we must try Dan, all the time, not just when people can see us.” He says and I look back down at the table, unable to say anything. “You need her Dan, and I’m sure she needs you.” He says softly.

“She hates me.” I whisper, my voice sticking in my throat.

“Did she tell you that? Or did you tell yourself that?” He asks.

“It doesn’t matter, it’s still true.” I say and Glen sighs.

“How do you know?” He asks and my brain whirs around, trying to think of a reason. “I bet you she is sat at home, thinking that you hate her, but knowing she needs you.”

“What if your wrong?” I ask quietly, imagining it in my head; the hatred on her face as she sees me, the bang of the door as it’s slammed in front of me.

“Then I’m wrong, but you will never know if you don’t try.” He says and a small smile slides onto my face.

“Your never gonna know if you never even try.” I sing quietly and Glen smiles.

“Exactly, so what are you waiting for Danny boy?” Glen says, “Give it a try.”

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Hi.....sorry this is a few days late! I did almost finish the chapter at last the other day but my laptop died and im a idiot cause i hadnt saved it....so yeh i had to re-write it and its nowhere near as good as it was but oh well. I feel not a great deal is happening at the min....sorry...but i plan on starting up one of the big parts in the story in the next couple of chapters!

Sooo....Eoin isn't happy with his girlfriend....not at all happy...but Cat was there to listen...and she is starting to become friendly with him...humm

New Character! Right u can blame her as well of the lateness of this chapter! I couldnt think of a name that suited her! (it took 2 hours and help from a friend and loads of baby name websites to find one that worked) But wasnt Luke rude to her?! Poor Louise

And something is still up with Mark...and Danny is gonna try and talk to Cat again!

Also shipping names!!!

Danny and Cat = Canny! (well pleased with that name btw...)

Eoin and Cat= Coin (terrible i know but what else could it be?...it could be Kniess i guess because of Princess and Knight....idk...)

lol i love shipping names so if u have any for any other characters too be sure to share and if i like it u will get a dedication!

Also its one of my best friends bday's today! @CrazyElfPricness happy birthday! bithday dedication is required i think! (Btw when im late for ur party (which come on is probs gonna happen...its me) its because i was writing this....please dont murder me! lol :)

So yeh....i think thats everything i should babble about....yeh. Right so thanks so much for reading! Please do vote and comment! Thanks! Your all amazing!

                                                               Jess :)

P.S So who do u ship at the min? Canny? Coin? Any other characters u can think of shipping names for?

Also, remember KETTLE! :) (...CrazyElfPrincess put KETTLE at the bottom of my xmas card! made me laugh loads & nobody else got it lol) :D