Already! How! {Random Book Four}

This is Ridiculous

I find it ridiculous that parents tell us we should be happy and do anything to be happy yet when they want us to do something (not like smaller things like taking out trash, doing dishes etc.) that doesn't make us happy they just force us to do it

~Exercise~
If anything forcing me to work out makes me feel worse about myself

~school~
My dad tells me do my best and as long as I'm doing that he'd be proud even if I had a C. Ok fine whatever I can live with that. But the this happened
My mom told me I got a D on my final in Science and when I said "at least my grade in science is an A" she replied with "yeah but your just barely passing by you have an A-" (or is it -A????)
:/

~cleaning my room~
Ok ok ok
Yeah so what this might be a "minor thing" that you should just do
But seriously
I like it when it's semi messy it feels comforting to me. It's my space. I don't tell my mom to go clean her room because she has clothes on her floor. Leave my room if you don't like it
I don't FORCE you to come into my space
I hate that excuse "I'm paying for this house"
Then why give me my own personal space :T
Besides if it gets dirty enough I will eventually freaking clean it cause I can't stand it anymore
Only if it were to get dirty enough though

~Friends~
I'm antisocial
I don't like talking to people unless I feel comfortable around them
Parents (my parents at least) always say you need friends
Well look
I lost my best friend and it broke my heart I don't want to go through that again
And yeah friends are good support but when are you going to get it a point where you trust them with everything
It took me a couple years to get that way with my old friend.
Has anyone ever noticed that parents may have friends but never that many
Heck my mom has 1-2 close friends and that's about it. They never even hang out yet I'm always told its soooooo important to have friends
What if I like being alone

That's why parents annoy me sometimes

That and they don't treat me like I'm 14
Like shut up ok I deserve to know these things
I'm going to be an "young adult" in around 4-5 years
If I don't learn now then I'll never learn and it'll be all your fault

🙃

Those are my thoughts throughout school btw
It's why I break down and cry a lot also

What has my life even come to?