*Sad*
Turn away
If you could get me a drink
Of water 'cause my lips are chapped and faded
Call my aunt Marie
Help her gather all my things
And bury me in all my favorite colors
My sisters and my brothers
Still
I will not kiss you
'Cause the hardest part of this is leaving you
I will not kiss you (kiss you)
Lips are chapped and faded
Call my (call my)
(Turn away)
Lips are chapped and faded (faded)
Kiss you (kiss you)
Lips are chapped and faded
Call my (call my)
(Turn away)
Lips are chapped and faded (faded)
Now turn away
'Cause I'm awful just to see
And all my hairs abandoned all my body
All my agony
Know that I will never marry
Baby, I'm just soggy from the chemo
I'm counting down the days to go
This just ain't livin'
And I just hope you know
I will not kiss you (kiss you)
Lips are chapped and faded
Call my (call my)
(Turn away)
Lips are chapped and faded (faded)
Kiss you (kiss you)
Lips are chapped and faded
Call my (call my)
(Turn away)
Lips are chapped and faded (faded)
If you say (if you say)
Goodbye today (goodbye today)
I'll ask you to be true (I'll ask you to be true)
'Cause the hardest part of this is leaving you
Yes, the hardest part of this...
I will not kiss you (kiss you)
Lips are chapped and faded
Call my (Call my)
Lips are chapped and faded (faded)
Kiss you (kiss you)
Lips are chapped and faded
Call my (Call my)
Lips are chapped and faded (faded)
~
She's sick. She's in pain. She's suffering. She's fighting. She's in a war. Maybe she'll win. And, maybe not. She's broken. She's falling down. But she never give up.
I'm sick. I'm in pain. I'm suffering. I'm fighting. I'm In war. Maybe I'll win. And, maybe not. I'm broken. I'm falling down. But I'll never give up.
Today's our anniversary. Our 10th anniversary so far. 10 perfect years. We've been with each others from when we were only 15 years old. Now, we're older. And we're both in pain.
We've been in the hospital now for about 2 years. 2 years from suffering. 2 years from pain.
But at the end of the day, we're still managing to keep ourselves positive and happy.
She's the love of my life. She's the one who is keeping me on. She's the one who's helping me even though she's just like me.
We both got that disease at the same time. We got it in our blood. We've been taking Chemotherapy nonstop. Its painful. I wish I was the only one in this situation, not her with me.
I wish there is only a 1% for her. I don't care about myself, I only care about her.
We both promised each other that whatever happens to anyone of us, the other should never give up. But, I just can't. Every time I think negatively, she is the only one who cheer me up and make me think the other way. She's still perfect. Even though she's in pain all the time.
I'm a man, I can contain that pain but knowing that she feels just the same as me, makes my heart shatter into a million of pieces. She is so soft and sensitive, how can someone like her feel that much of pain and still mange to look perfect and acts like she's fine?
Thinking of that makes me know more how strong she really is. And that makes me feel so much better.
Praying is the only thing that we have now. And I really hope everything will be fine soon.
