Weed(N.M)

39.

Next day
Brooke's pov

I woke up in the middle of the night to cramps.
I quickly got up and saw blood on the sheets.
I saw Nate wasn't in bed
I took all the sheets off the bed and saw there was a little but of blood on the mattress
I got eye drops and dropped and put it on it and scrubbed with a towel
Once it was off I took the sheets.
And carried them to the washer
And I ran back upstairs and took a quick shower
And put on panties with a pad
And I put on black leggings and a grey v-neck.
And I put my hair in a high pony tail.
I walked out and saw Nate looking at me confused
"Where's our sheets" he asked
"Washer and why are you up at 3 in the morning" I asked
"I went to smoke. And why are you awake. And why are the sheets in the washer I washed them yesterday" he asked
"No reason" I said not making eye contact
I walked out the room
I went downstairs and put on my black nikes
I grabbed my keys and was about to leave
"Where are you going" Nate asked
"No where" I said walking out the front door.
I got in my car
And drove to a 24 hour store
I grabbed pads and luckily it was a girl cashier
After I payed I got back into the car and drove home.
I parked my car and went inside
I put my stuff upstairs and I looked out the window it was sunny
I was gone for a while.
I look at my phone.
It was 7:30
I went back downstairs and I saw everyone in the kitchen.
I didn't want to be In there cause I don't feel good.
I went to the basement.
No one really goes down there.
I laid on the couch and went on my phone.
I went to twitter
I saw all this hate on my feed

@maloleyswife: @brookesummers is honestly a hoe. My uncle sold her a preg test.

@fuckmemaloley: @brookesummers is a druggy. And she's so fat what does Nate see in her

@joeclynmaloley: @brookesummers I really hate you. Kys

I felt tears roll down my cheek.

@blackwatermellon: @brookesummers she was adopted cause her real parents thought she has downsydrome

@dankmemes: @brookesummers she makes me wanna kill myself

@dankweed: @brookesummers
Waste of space.

I threw my phone across the basement.
I started sobbing into a pillow

I kept hearing my phone go off

I got up and grabbed it
I saw I shattered it
I ran upstairs from the basement and to my room
I went in and locked the door.
I went into the bathroom and took my shaver.
And slid it across my wrist
A few times.

I had about 5-6 cuts.
I grabbed toilet paper and placed it on my wrist to soak up all the blood.
Then I wrapped a bandage around my wrist.
Then I put on a sweatshirt.
And I wiped my eyes.
And calmed down.
I put my phone in my pocket.
And went downstairs.

I saw taylor Nate Cameron Sammy jj jack Tez and Derek here.
"We much be having a party" I said jokingly
"It's not a party without weed" Sammy said
"Or pills" Derek said
"Who does pills" I asked
Everyone raised their hands but Nate
he looked hesitant
He looked at me with guilt
I started to walk away
"Fuck Derek I said not to bring those when she's here" I heard Nate snap
"Bro I'm sorry" I heard Derek say
I went upstairs.
I quickly called Kelsey.

"Hello" she answered
"Hey Kelsey" I said
"Oh Brooke" she said like she hated me
"What's with that tone" I asked
"Nothing. I just don't want a druggy friend. Oh and thanks for showing up for my kids baptism" she said
"You never told me when it was" I said
"I've called you" she said
"No you didn't" I said
"Yea and for Ethan's funeral too you didn't answered. None of our calls" she said
"Ethan died" I asked
"Yep. And you didn't answer when I needed you the most" she said
I started to cry again
"And Mikey he tried calling you cause he was about to kill himself. And you didn't answer. And Jewell. She was raped and u didn't Answer when she needed you. Cause she needed to talk to you." She said
I started sobbing.
"How did Ethan die" I asked
"Car crash" she said
"I'm so sorry Kelsey" I said
"And the day I found out he was in the crash. I also found out I was pregnant with another baby. And you didn't answer" she said
"I'm sorry" I said sobbing.
"Is Mikey okay" I tried to make out
"He's fine he's sleeping in the other room" she said
"And jewell" I asked
"No one knows where she is" she said
I sniffled
"I never got any calls. I'm sorry" I said
"No your not. Cause all u do is smoke weed and fuck your boyfriend" she hung up
I was balling.
"It's all my fault" I cried out.
I went into the bathroom and cut my wrist more and cleaned it up. I have 10 cuts now

I got up and decided to go to my moms to see Anthony.

I knew where she lives cause Anthony gave me the address.

I grabbed my keys and walked past Nate.
I got in my car. And drove to my moms.

I saw flowers everywhere and a bunch of cars
I parked my car and walked up to the door
I knocked
I saw my mom open the door and she was crying
"Why are you crying" I asked
"Your brother is gone" she said
"What do you mean gone" I asked
"He's dead" she said
I felt the whole world crash down.
I walked to my car.
And I got in.
I started balling again
"Why DOES EVERYONE I LOVE LEAVE" I started screaming in my car
I kept slapping the wheel. And yanking my seat belt.
"IM SUCK A FUCK UP. ITS MY FAULT ETHAN AND ANTHONY ARE DEAD. ITS MY FAULT
JEWELL WAS RAPED ITS MY FAULT MIKEY TRIED TO COMMIT SUICIDE ITS MY FAULT MY DAD HATES ME. WHY DO I FUCK EVERYTHING UP" I started screaming
I started the car and drove home again.
I parked my car.
And I got out.
I walked threw the front door and I heard yelling
"SERIOUSLY DEREK WE ALL AGREED TO STOP THE PILLS. SO DONT GET PISSED THAT CAMERON AND I FLUSHED THEM" I heard taylor yell.
"That's fucking 300 dollars wasted" Derek said
"Here's 300 bucks. Seriously not get out" I heard Nate say
Derek walked passed me and left.
Everyone was staring at me.
"Is there something wrong with my face" I asked
"Why is your sweatshirt all bloody by the wrist" Cameron asked
I looked down at it

"I don't know" I said
"did you cut yourself" Tez asked
"Wait what" I saw Nate push threw all the guys
He runs over to me and grabs my wrist.
Before he lifts my sweatshirt
I just started balling
He lifts my sleeve and his eyes widened.
"Brooke." He said softly.
I heard all the guys go downstairs.
"Don't hurt yourself. Ever" he said
"I'm just ovewhelmed" I said sobbing.
He hugs me.
I cried into his shoulder.
"Let's go upstairs and talk about it" he said
We walked upstairs
I sat on the bed.
"What's going on" he asked
"My little brother died so did Ethan. And Mikey tried to kill himself and Jewell was raped and Kelsey blames it on me cause I didn't awnser my phone. And my dad hates me and I hate myself. And I'm getting all this hate on twitter and I can't handle all this stress put on my shoulders" I cried.

Nate's pov

"My little brother died so did Ethan. And Mikey tried to kill himself and Jewell was raped and Kelsey blames it on me cause I didn't awnser my phone. And my dad hates me and I hate myself. And I'm getting all this hate on twitter and I can't handle all this stress put on my shoulders" Brooke cried

I felt so bad for her.
"I went to my moms house to see Anthony. And I walked in on his funeral. And I didn't get a prober goodbye" she said

"Babe I'm so sorry. This is all happening to you" I said hugging her
"I promise everything will get better. And please don't cut yourself. That won't solve anything. You know all the guys and I are here to talk to" I said
"Okay" she said
"Give me your wrist" I said
"Are you gonna slap it" She asked
"I would never ever hit you" I said
She lifts her sleeve
I got up and grabbed as towel and put some water and soap
I came back and wiped off all the dried blood on her wrist.
Then I counted how many times she cut herself

After I counted it was 10 times.
I lifted her wrist to my face and kissed everyone of her scars.
After I kissed her wrist
I looked at her and I hurt me to see her cry.
She wraps her arms around my neck and I snaked my arms around her waist

Once she calm down she fell asleep.
I lifted her and put her upper on the bed and covered her with the blanket and I layed with her for a while.

After an hour I got up and went downstairs

I saw the guys all on the couch.
"Is she okay" Sammy asked
I shook my head no.
"She's really overwhelmed. And what she just told me. I feel so bad for her." I said
"What did she say" Tez asked
"I'll have her tell u. I honestly don't know if she wants to tell anyone" I said
Everyone nodded
"Well. I'm gonna be with her. Cause I don't want her to hurt herself. So if u guys need me. I'll be upstairs" I said
I ran back upstairs and took off my shirt and pants and put on some basketball shorts.
And laid back in bed with Brooke and she laid onto my chest. And I fell asleep.