The Sins Of One Man

Prologue

"It's been 5 years, since we've spoken last
And you can't take back what we never had
I can be manipulated only so many times
Before even "I love you" starts to sound like a lie

You have a hollowed out heart
But it's heavy in your chest
I try so hard to fight it
But it's hopeless, hopeless, you're hopeless

Oh father, please father
I'd love to leave you alone, but I can't let you go
Oh father, please father
Put the bottle down for the love of a daughter"

I turn off the music and let myself fall down on my bed. The tears slowly start rolling down my cheeks. I thought I was strong enough. I thought I was over it. I thought I had forgiven myself for my father's mistakes and could finally move on with my life. But I hadn't.

What if I never can?

No, don't think like that! There has to be some kind of way to deal with this right? Maybe talk to mom about it? No, she hasn't been open to discussing matters about your dad since the divorce. Not that you were old enough to discuss anything back then. You were only six years old after all and you didn't understand what was happening at all. In fact, for the longest time you blamed her for everything. She had ruined everything. But now you knew the truth and it had torn you to pieces. Everything you had every believed in turned out to be a twisted version of the truth. A filthy lie. And the worst part was, everyone had played along all those years. No one told you. They let you find it all out on your own.

And now I'm broken.
Will I ever be whole again?