I'm sorry...I'm sorry to everyone I've been a burden to. Yes I've made mistakes in my life, I accept that. Yes I've done things I regret. I've sent pictures I shouldn't have, I've told lies I shouldn't have, I've swung first when I shouldn't have, I've hidden the truth when I shouldn't have. After everything I'm here. Shaking, crying, worrying. I've fallen to my knees in fear many times, never like this. What if word gets around? Where am I going to be in a week? A month? A year? Will this be behind me? Will I be smiling, laughing with a faint pain in the back of my head still? I can't wait a year. I want to know now. Will this pass?
I've lost so much, my world is falling apart. I've lost friends, family. Memories pain me but this...I want an escape
WHAT WAS I THINKING!? Bloody idiot how stupid am I!?
I want to slap myself, where will that get me? It won't help anything right now.
What will though?
How will I forget?
I need to forget!
I feel like people will look at me different if they know, there will be something small in their looks only I will notice, it will tear me apart.
Word...don't get around
This morning I was oblivious to what was going to happen. If only I could fall back even 3 hours. Id be happy.
Take me back
