rings and vows (Completed) (Boyxboy)

chapter 21 (shattered)

Lee's pov

Confused? Yan ang katanungan na tila paulit ulit sa aking utak. Hindi ko alam kung anong mararamdaman ko ngayon.

I love chant so much na naibigay ko sa kanya ng walang pagaalinlangan ang sarili ko. I loved him without a doubt nung una but now. Now that he has a girl with him. I'm starting to doubt if i really had made the right choice in allowing him na pumasok sa puso ko at sakupin ang emosyon ko.

I have dealt with different kinds of pain in my life. Yung pagkamatay ni mama. Yung pagloloko ni dread. Yung ginawa nila ni yummi sa akin. The pain of being bullied for the first time in my life.

With those being said alam kong matatag na ako. Kaya ko nang harapin ang mga paparating pang mga pagsubok sa buhay ko. But thinking of another break up from a guy who made a promised not to hurt me is something i cannot bear.

Sa ngayon maliban kay dad eh si chant nalang at yung tropa ang nasasandalan ko. At kung magkakalamat pa kami ni chant eh wala nang matitira pa sakin. Dad is just too busy with his business kaya di ko sya pwede basta basta nalang istorbohin just because i cannot handle my petty emotional issues.

It has been two weeks. Nagpaalam sa akin si chant to help that mia girl to be familiarized with the environment na matagal nya ring iniwan when they decided to migrate to canada with her family.

I gave chant the approval dahil pinaliwanag nya sakin lahat even his past with mia which i set aside nung sinubukan nya akong suyuin after what happened sa may cafeteria nung nakita kong sinubuan sya ng cookie ni mia and i saw happiness in his eyes.

In all fairness naman kay chant eh ginawa nya lahat to show that he is really sorry for leaving me alone without explanation. Sinabihan ko nalang syang hindi na yun big deal sa akin even though deep inside i felt sad na kaya pala akong balewalain ni chant when someone betters comes in. But his efforts of getting me back made my heart melt kaya madali ko narin syang pinatawad sa ginawa nya.

I felt na nagkulang din ako somehow on the efforts sa relasyon namin. Nonetheless, eh pinatawad ko na sya and i let him do what he thinks he must do so long as he will communicate with me constantly. Nanijiwala kasi ako that good communication is what makes the relationship steady and sturdy.

On the first week eh naglalaan parin ng panahon sa akin si chant. Even if it is just thirty minutes as long as kasama ko sya it will be all worth it. He constantly text me kung nasan na sya at anong pinagkakaabalahan niya with mia. Kampante ako that chant is doing his other side of promise and in return i gave him my full trust kaya naman we get along pretty well on the first week.

I thought tuloy tuloy na ang pagiging ok ng situasyon namin ni chant given the hectic schedule that he has na soon to be a graduate bachelor eh magiging busy sya but still has the time to at least tell me a little bit of his everyday life.

I understand his business and it is very much ok with me dahil sineseryoso ko din naman ang pagaaral on my part which i find it hard to even insert few minutes of my time for him but i always see to it na matetext ko sya oh di kaya matawagan upang makapagsabi man lang ng i love you just before the day ends.

But one thing na napansin ko last week is napakadalang nalang ni chant na itext ako kahit i love you nalang. Kaya instead of waiting for him to text me eh inuunahan ko na sya. Nung monday he made a reply to my text asking for forgiveness dahil sa busy schedule nya. Ngunit dahil naiintindihan ko sya eh i accepted his apology without hesitation.

But days pass nang dumalang hanggang sa hindi na sya nagrereply sa mga text ko. I felt a bit worried kaya naman nung friday ng umaga i decided to wait for him sa may bench ng parking area kung saan sya laging nagpapark ng sasakyan nya.